We Can't Escape God's Grace, No Matter How Hard We Try
Start writing a post

We Can't Escape God's Grace, No Matter How Hard We Try

His grace abounds in deepest waters.

waves from above

I spent pretty much all of my adolescence pushing boundaries and seeing just how far I could look over the edge without actually falling forward. This ranged from timing how long it would take my mom to notice I hadn't cleaned my room yet for the weekend, to see how high I could get before losing all feeling in my legs. Much of my experiments were all in my head, and I had the kind of determination to succeed as a person with OCD, trying to not step on sidewalk cracks.

I viewed this secret part of myself as a quirky personality trait. But in reality, I was testing just how far I could stretch God's grace.

Growing up in a Christian home and attending Sunday school nearly every week, Jesus was a reoccurring topic in our house and something I was taught to reference when shit hit the fan. But in 2007, my father left my mom, sisters, and I, leaving me with the subconscious idea that if my father on earth couldn't love me enough to stay in my life, why would my heavenly father? This was my gut reaction to all hardship thrown my way: if God is all-powerful and can tame the strongest of waves, why couldn't He take the time out of his day to calm the tsunami inside of me?

Eve, from the book of Genesis, ate the fruit from the forbidden tree because humanity was created to be curious. And without curiosity and free will, life itself would have no purpose. In this life you are expected to face trials and tribulation, otherwise, we wouldn't have a need to turn back to God. And although this is such a tough pill to swallow, we have to remember that He never gives us challenges we cannot handle.

"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." — 1 Corinthians 10:13

I learned the true meaning of heartache before I reached second grade, but God didn't make that a part of my story to push me down and keep me there. It set a fire in my belly to seek the truth, and to constantly test what was right from wrong... even though I often found myself in the wrong. I chose to listen to the devil when he tempted me into breaking rules and basking in deception, but no matter how far I wandered, Jesus never stopped calling out to me. We have been given grace upon grace like a wave is immediately followed by another, and I know that God will never leave me stranded in a sea of doubt without teaching me to swim.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.

Breaking Down The Beginning, Middle, And End of Netflix's Newest 'To All The Boys' Movie

Noah Centineo and Lana Condor are back with the third and final installment of the "To All The Boys I've Loved Before" series


Were all teenagers and twenty-somethings bingeing the latest "To All The Boys: Always and Forever" last night with all of their friends on their basement TV? Nope? Just me? Oh, how I doubt that.

I have been excited for this movie ever since I saw the NYC skyline in the trailer that was released earlier this year. I'm a sucker for any movie or TV show that takes place in the Big Apple.

Keep Reading... Show less

4 Ways To Own Your Story, Because Every Bit Of It Is Worth Celebrating

I hope that you don't let your current chapter stop you from pursuing the rest of your story.

Photo by Manny Moreno on Unsplash

Every single one of us has a story.

I don't say that to be cliché. I don't say that to give you a false sense of encouragement. I say that to be honest. I say that to be real.

Keep Reading... Show less
Politics and Activism

How Young Feminists Can Understand And Subvert The Internalized Male Gaze

Women's self-commodification, applied through oppression and permission, is an elusive yet sexist characteristic of a laissez-faire society, where women solely exist to be consumed. (P.S. justice for Megan Fox)

Paramount Pictures

Within various theories of social science and visual media, academics present the male gaze as a nebulous idea during their headache-inducing meta-discussions. However, the internalized male gaze is a reality, which is present to most people who identify as women. As we mature, we experience realizations of the perpetual male gaze.

Keep Reading... Show less

It's Important To Remind Yourself To Be Open-Minded And Embrace All Life Has To Offer

Why should you be open-minded when it is so easy to be close-minded?


Open-mindedness. It is something we all need a reminder of some days. Whether it's in regards to politics, religion, everyday life, or rarities in life, it is crucial to be open-minded. I want to encourage everyone to look at something with an unbiased and unfazed point of view. I oftentimes struggle with this myself.

Keep Reading... Show less

14 Last Minute Valentine's Day Gifts Your S.O. Will Love

If they love you, they're not going to care if you didn't get them some expensive diamond necklace or Rolex watch; they just want you.


Let me preface this by saying I am not a bad girlfriend.

I am simply a forgetful one.

Keep Reading... Show less
Student Life

10 Helpful Tips For College Students Taking Online Courses This Semester

Here are several ways to easily pass an online course.

Photo by Vlada Karpovich on Pexels

With spring semester starting, many college students are looking to take courses for the semester. With the pandemic still ongoing, many students are likely looking for the option to take online courses.

Online courses at one time may have seemed like a last minute option for many students, but with the pandemic, they have become more necessary. Online courses can be very different from taking an on-campus course. You may be wondering what the best way to successfully complete an online course is. So, here are 10 helpful tips for any student who is planning on taking online courses this semester!

Keep Reading... Show less

Take A Look At The Extravagant Lane Woods Jewelry Collection For Valentine's Gift Ideas

So if you are currently looking to purchase jewelry for yourself or as a romantic gift for your S.O., you should definitely look at the marvelous and ornately designed Lane Woods Jewelry collection


Just like diamonds are a girl's best friend, so are pearls, rubies, gold, emeralds, and any type of luxurious jewelry you can get your hands on! A woman is incomplete without a piece of jewelry on her and it is a gorgeous accessory required for all occasions. So if you are currently looking to purchase jewelry for yourself or as a romantic gift for your S.O., you should definitely look at the marvelous and ornately designed Lane Woods Jewelry collection.

Keep Reading... Show less

50 Iconic Quotes From 'The Golden Girls' That Will Always Make You Laugh

"People waste their time pondering whether a glass is half empty or half full. Me, I just drink whatever's in the glass."


"The Golden Girls" created history when it first premiered in 1985 setting the stage of strong-willed female characters who are aging gracefully with dignity. It is a treasure trove filled with humorous scenes and situations that will always be relevant to watch. I still rejoice in watching these spectacular women embrace life with full stride and the way they always strive to focus on the brighter side of life.

These 4 dynamic and awe-inspiring women taught us that age is indeed nothing more than a number and that we can set out to accomplish anything our heart desires at any time.

Keep Reading... Show less
Facebook Comments