You Can't Be In A Strong Relationship If You Don't Let The Other Person In
Let them see all of you.
My boyfriend has seen me simply at my worst vomiting on a train, and my best when I called him and told him about a writing workshop and the producer told me I'm brave.
One-sided relationships shouldn't even be a thing. Yeah, he pays for more since I don't work while at school. So I try to spoil him by making dinner for us after a long day of work, or a surprise present with money I put away. Spoiling is okay, I promise. If it makes you bratty in the end that's your problem.
I'm sitting on the train after a fabulous day in Boston with my boyfriend and I'm thinking about how blessed I am. If it's laying in bed cuddling listening to music, or if we're walking around the city hand in hand. It doesn't matter where I am, I am blessed whenever I am with him.
Let your boyfriend in. I don't think my boyfriend and I would have the strong relationship we have if we didn't communicate. If we didn't say how we really feel—how we're struggling. If you want to spend years with them, heck even marries them, they need to see all sides of you.
Let them see you ugly cry watching Queer Eye. Let them see you eating a whole pint of ice cream in one sitting. Let them see you have a panic attack—and let them help you. Let them catch you dancing to your favorite song in the kitchen.
Let them see all of you.
I'm a cancer, so I'm hella emotional all the time. I cry over everything, and my boyfriend learned that quickly. The first time I stayed the night my Mimi was rushed into emergency surgery, and I just knew it wasn't good. So I cried and cried, and that was a big deal because before that I was completely shut down emotionally, and I didn't cry in front of people at all. I held it in, but he needed to see what I was going through. He needed to see that I needed him even if I verbally couldn't say it.
It wasn't until almost a year of us being together and knowing each other for almost three when I saw him cry. My boyfriend isn't really an emotional person, but he is the most comforting person I know. When his cousin died he talked to me, he let me in. We went through grief together and are strong together and apart because of it.
Let him in. You will feel so much better in your relationship. The world will seem a little lighter on your shoulders, and he will be someone you can call, text or be with when you need him. Sure, he'll always be there for you. But if you tell him what's going on, he might know how to take better care of you at the moment.
If I didn't let my boyfriend in I don't think I would've asked him to come to my grandmother's funeral. I don't think I would've been spending spring break with him for 10 days. If I didn't let him in he wouldn't know my favorite ice cream, and the backup ice-cream if the store doesn't have cookies & cream. If I didn't let him in and tell him I'm a fucking mess after surgery and needed him, then he wouldn't have come over the day after and watch bad chick flicks with me.
If you don't let them in they can't meet you half way.
There is only so far they can go without knowing every side and every inch of you. There is only so much they can do to help you, help you achieve your goals, help you during a rough day.
I know it's so so scary, but let him in. You won't regret it, letting your guard down with someone you love is worth it. It's work the risk and worry because you need the support in the end.
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