Being stuck on an idea, I wasn't sure what to write about this week. All of a sudden the song "Pieces Of Me," by Ashlee Simpson came on. It's an oldie but still relevant. Having some trouble with different things lately made me realize I'm not exactly sure how I've been feeling.

Well, you must know the song especially if you were born in the late 90's or early 2000's. It starts off like this:

"On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me"

Just now hearing it became so clear and relevant because that is me. Going through a break up right now is tough especially because we have been together almost three and a half years. It's a repetitive cycle.

Sunday we fight, Monday I wait for him, Tuesday I am fading because I don't feel good, by Wednesday I'm more of a mess and can't sleep more, then for the rest of the week I'm just all over the place. Because after a few days the guy I was fighting with comes and tries to fix it. I give in and forgive you.

"It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels"

You make me feel so special for a moment and make it seem like our love is real. I feel as if it is only us two and no one else matters. It never lasts long anyway. When the next week arrives, though, it happens all over again.

"I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care"

I know the way I am depicting and relating to this song is not how most others would, maybe it's just the way I'm feeling. It's true, I can be messy and moody but it's usually because I feel as if you don't care. Come to find out, you don't.
When I'm angry, you listen

"Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there"

Most times when I am feeling down you try to make me feel better, but lately, that hasn't been the case. You tell me "I'm faking it", as in being upset. You used to fight so hard for me to stay, what happened?

"I hope it never goes away..."

Well, it is going away because you have ended us again and we now have to go our own ways. You gave up.