Drowning at one a.m.

Your smell still reeking all over me.

Memories fading in and out.

Our lives black and white, no gray to see.

Gasping for air in darkness with only the light of technology.

Not caring about the outcome, just wanting to be free.

Time keeps passing by, yet it's like you're still controlling me.

Even though you're with her, you keep doing little things.

No matter how high I get I see you in my dreams.

On replay in my head, your lips against mine.

We didn't know then but it would be our first and last time.

All I can do is sit here while my head and heart just screams.

You told me "Don't mess up this time".

If you only knew how I felt back then, maybe now, we could see eye to eye.

You told me to wait.

Its been over a year.

You made your choice, even made mine.

When goodbye was out the question.

You made it clear to see.

Both of you all over Insta, as clothes less as could be.

You tried to apologize for what you did in December.

Yet you have to swallow your pride.

I cant believe you still remember.

Left me there hanging with my heart on my sleeve.

Everyone says you're so unhappy.

I don't get it.

Making memories with her, while ours stay haunting me.

She doesn't make you as happy as you're forcing it to be.

And you don't love me as much as you tried to make it seem.

I refuse to keep waiting for you aimlessly.

I just don't get why you keep doing this to me.

I pray God brings someone in my life, who will finally let me breathe.