Hello, I am a college student and I am a chronic Googler.

It's like Alice in Wonderland, but much less fun. The rabbit hole is more like a slippery slope and harder to dig out of than a YouTube spiral.

I am a chronic Googler. In fact, I have a folder on my desktop labeled "Google Rabbit Hole" I constantly find myself in the overwhelming world of Google. Since coming to college, my practices have only worsened. In high school, I could have up to 20 tabs of articles and links about how to get into college.

Halfway through my third year, my searches are different, but my habits have not changed much. I get absorbed into what I want to do for the future. Planning for me goes hand in hand with my borderline (very tiny border) obsessiveness with knowing all the answers. I have found that I get lost down the rabbit hole that sometimes I forget what my initial search was.

In the worst times at university, I have found myself looking toward my searches for answers about things 5 years...10 years in the future. It seems silly to plan that far ahead when your life is not figured out for this moment. But, that is how it seemed to work for me. Preparation is a key factor in life, but I cannot expect Google and an organized spreadsheet to run my life.

I had realized how many of my relationships and general well-being was being harmed by this constant quest. I was so concerned with trying to stabilize something that is nowhere near plannable. It affected how I felt about school and life. I felt like it was a never-ending race towards what I had orchestrated in my head. Old habits do die hard, but it is not impossible.