To The One That Changed It All

To All The Ones I've Loved Before: Part III

Having you in my life hurt too much, but the idea of leaving you hurt more.


Dear P,

We met when we were Sophomores in high school. A mutual friend introduced us, and we definitely didn't hit it off right away.

However, after we burped on each other, we realized we were destined to become friends.

We didn't get close that year, but seeing you in the hallway made me really happy for some reason.

Once our lunch trio became a duo; it was you and me against the world. Even though we barely knew each other, it was pretty nice.

As we got closer, I noticed myself gravitating towards you more and more. I thought about you all the time.

I didn't know how to say anything to you about it, so I didn't.

It almost ate me alive.

I started to notice that you didn't care about me as much as your other friends. I became a last resort for you.

Eventually, our friendship became awkward. Even though it hurt like you could never imagine, I didn't know how to fix it.

It was hard enough to watch our friendship disappear, but it was even harder given that I had fallen for you.

Watching you kiss other people in the hallway left me conflicted.

I was happy for you, but I wished I was the one making you happy.

I couldn't tell you. I couldn't tell anyone, especially our friends.

I knew that if I told you, our friendship would be over. When our other friend asked you out, I saw your reaction.

I couldn't handle losing you like that.

I kept this a secret for almost a year, and it was beyond painful.

Whenever I wasn't around you, I spent all my time wishing I knew how to talk to you. When I was around you, I was at war with myself.

This internal battle going on inside me prevented from appreciating what was right in front of me.

Eventually our friendship disappeared completely. At first, it stung like walking through fire, but eventually I came to terms with the fact that we weren't meant to be part of each other's lives.

It was still sad though. Not only did I lose a good friend, but I had fallen in love with someone who I couldn't even have as a friend.

Even though I was relieved from continuously being at war with myself, I wished things could go back to the way they were before I caught feelings for you and ruined everything.

Talking to you used to be as easy as writing my name.

After months of not speaking to each other, we eventually became friends again. This time, I didn't have feelings for you. We became best friends, and that was more than OK.

I wish we'd kept in contact after I left for college, but maybe our paths will cross again someday. You taught me a lot, and for that I am forever grateful.

Good luck out there.

With all the love in the world,


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To The Girl Who Isn't Graduating On Time, It Won't Feel Any Less Amazing When You Do

Graduating is something to be proud of no matter how long it takes you.


To the girl who isn't graduating college "on time,"

I promise, you will get there eventually, and you will walk across that graduation stage with the biggest smile on your face.

You may have a different journey than the people you grew up with, and that is OKAY. You may have some twists and turns along the way, a few too many major changes, a life change, you may have taken most of a semester off to try to figure your life out, and you're doing the best you can.

Your family and your friends don't think less of you or your accomplishments, they are proud of your determination to get your degree.

They are proud of the woman you are becoming. They don't think of you as a failure or as someone any less awesome than you are. You're getting your degree, you're making moves towards your dreams and the life that you have always wanted, so please stop beating yourself up while you see people graduating college on time and getting a job or buying a car.

Your time will come, you just keep doing what you need to do in order to get on that graduation stage.

Your path is set out for you, and you will get there with time but also with patience. The place you're at right now is where you are supposed to be. You are going to thrive and you are going to be the best version of you when you graduate and start looking for a company that you will be proud to work for. Don't look on social media and feel less than, because at least you're still working towards your degree that you are finally passionate about. You will be prepared. You will be ready once the time comes and you cross the stage, move away, and start your journey in whatever field you're going into.

Don't question yourself, and be confident in your abilities.

With love,

A girl who isn't graduating on time

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To Those Who Feel The Need To Tear Down Others, Take A Seat

You have no right to hurt others because you don’t agree with them.


I recently wrote a super controversial article, which I'm honestly very proud of. In the comment section, there were plenty of people criticizing me because of what I believe in, mainly because they didn't believe in the same thing as I put out there.

I would just like everyone to know that the people that write for this amazing company are just that — people. They are real, they have opinions, and they have feelings. There is nothing different about them than you. Would you like someone commenting hate on your Facebook post or anything like that? No, no you wouldn't. When you comment rude things on something that someone worked long and hard on, you are just being rude and inconsiderate of their feelings.

If you just go to the comments to leave a rude comment, you can write it down on a piece of paper and throw it away. You're being a bully. These writers more than likely will go to the comment section, just like I did, and will be hurt by your arrogant, inappropriate comments.

Ever heard of if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all.

If you don't agree with me that's fine, but that doesn't give you the right to deliberately go and try and tear me or anyone else down. You're just being rude and you have no reason to be, all I did was write an article on something I believe in.

Also, don't let anyone rude enough to do this tear you down or diminish your self-worth. There are people out there who are still kind and caring, don't listen to the negativity this world brings. Just keep doing what makes you happy, because in the end, that's all that really matters.

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