Even if I live to be 100 years old, I will never forget waking up from my mid-morning nap on Wednesday, March 25, 2015. It was a gorgeous day, the sun streaking in through the open windows of my freshman dorm room as I opened my eyes and sat up in bed, mentally preparing to drag myself out of bed and across campus to statistics. Little did I know that my world would soon come crashing down around me. I shut off my alarm, and it was then that I saw dozens upon dozens of texts. While I had slumbered so peacefully, a heartbreaking, earthshaking official statement had been released. Nothing would ever be the same again. Z-day was here.
It's been a year since Zayn left One Direction in favor of a solo career. In honor of the 18 tracks on his new solo album, "Mind of Mine," here are 18 reasons why I still miss him.
1. Four just isn't the same as five.
2. No one can hit that "You and I" high note like Zayn can.[rebelmouse-proxy-image https://media.rbl.ms/image?u=%2Ffiles%2F2016%2F03%2F26%2F635946074629746293554581242_tumblr_inline_n1d7jiMPHw1sxcgdm.gif&ho=https%3A%2F%2Faz616578.vo.msecnd.net&s=449&h=fcffbeae2308cfa6c94515f83a0d56ee0939d23310ffd05a3f7d5bb59b3b1e23&size=980x&c=3568680263 crop_info="%7B%22image%22%3A%20%22https%3A//media.rbl.ms/image%3Fu%3D%252Ffiles%252F2016%252F03%252F26%252F635946074629746293554581242_tumblr_inline_n1d7jiMPHw1sxcgdm.gif%26ho%3Dhttps%253A%252F%252Faz616578.vo.msecnd.net%26s%3D449%26h%3Dfcffbeae2308cfa6c94515f83a0d56ee0939d23310ffd05a3f7d5bb59b3b1e23%26size%3D980x%26c%3D3568680263%22%7D" expand=1]
Sorry, Liam. A for effort.
3. There have been no more selfies like this.
4. Or moments like this.
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5. Or this.
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6. Or this!
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7. It's been a whole year without the Bradford Bad Boy.
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8. No more promotional videos with moments like this.[rebelmouse-proxy-image https://media.rbl.ms/image?u=%2Ffiles%2F2016%2F03%2F26%2F635946073392354152-1126482475_tumblr_mi9zc1dMnx1r79wfdo1_500.gif&ho=https%3A%2F%2Faz616578.vo.msecnd.net&s=952&h=d2acee69a7acb65e144b617aa297472e2b71ea2fc78dbfacd56f0f0eb6cb7ab7&size=980x&c=2231910222 crop_info="%7B%22image%22%3A%20%22https%3A//media.rbl.ms/image%3Fu%3D%252Ffiles%252F2016%252F03%252F26%252F635946073392354152-1126482475_tumblr_mi9zc1dMnx1r79wfdo1_500.gif%26ho%3Dhttps%253A%252F%252Faz616578.vo.msecnd.net%26s%3D952%26h%3Dd2acee69a7acb65e144b617aa297472e2b71ea2fc78dbfacd56f0f0eb6cb7ab7%26size%3D980x%26c%3D2231910222%22%7D" expand=1]
9. No one has hair like this.
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Except Louis kinda does, now, but it's not the same.
10. Or a smile like this.
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11. Without Zayn, who else is going to lie to us?
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12. And now it just hurts to watch this.
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13. The Aladdin comparisons have stopped. 
14. I still miss this.
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15. And this.
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16. And this, too.
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17. And we can't forget about this.
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