When I looked at my reflection, I came to the conclusion that my mirror was being dishonest. It was a lie, I would never let myself get to such a weight.
Yet, there I stood with an invisible jawline, thighs decorated with stretch marks, a stomach with more rolls than rock, and a massive bum.
I felt disgusting.
Severely homesick, I spent most days avoiding the Oregon rainfall in my closet of a dorm. My once active body had become accustomed to stillness for I only separated from my mattress to attend lectures. Oregon was beautiful like I knew it would be, but the sky was always cloudy and I was forced to go weeks without seeing the sun. I soon learned to cry with the sky. I ached to be home in California.
I spent nights consuming copious amounts of sugar trying to taste the sweetness that was absent in my life. My body was paying for my cowardice.
Somewhere in the last month, I had lost who I was.
In the following weeks, I decided that the girl I was deserved a happy ending and I became determined to write it for her. I researched numerous diets and settled on paleo. Next, I unglued myself from my bed. I put myself on a sleep schedule. I was in bed by nine o'clock and up by 5 A.M., so I could spend an hour at the gym before my morning classes. I focused my full attention on school. I found keeping my nose in a book helped me to escape my depression. I set goals for myself and they gave me purpose.
By the time I stepped off the plane onto California soil, I had lost ten pounds, earned straight As, received a cash reward for my poetry, and was finally feeling like myself again.
The shift from high school to college wasn't easy, but I have found it is better not to let the negatives, no matter how great, control your present and future.
Health WellnessJun 03, 2019
Not Everyone Enjoys Freshman Year of College
Severely homesick, I spent most days avoiding the Oregon rainfall in my closet of a dorm; my once active body had become accustomed to stillness for I only separated from my mattress to attend lectures.