Pains Of Our Childhood

The Pains Of Our Childhood

I'm not a child anymore, but I still feel her pain.


Our childhood is everything.

It's when we learn how to ride a bike, or rather fall off a bike, and get back up.

It's when we learn to read, to write, and attend school for the first time.

We make friends, learn what friendship is, and set the tone for the rest of our life.

Now as great as it can be, it can also be the total opposite.

Not everyone's childhood is filled with positive memories, there can be trauma, and there can be deep pains.

For some of us, it's more obvious than others, and it's not until we're twenty-two, thirty-five, or fifty that we find ourselves hit in the gut with the realization that we're not fully healed from our pasts. That whatever happened to us as kids, affects us as adults.

I think one of the hardest things about being a kid is communicating pain properly, and communicating what's going on in your mind and heart. I know for me I wasn't aware of what I was feeling or thinking, and I didn't realize that my actions were a reflection of the deep pain within my heart.

As a kid the adults, and friends around us are an example, we can see no wrong, and we place so much hope and trust in them. When they fail us, I'm not sure we know what to do with that feeling.

It stings for the rest of your life when you see the look of total disappointment on your dad's face, when you hear the man who is suppose to protect you, and look out for you, completely fed up with you.

Or when your mom doesn't even know what to do with you. And you try to communicate these pains and feelings, but it always seems to get turned back around on you.

"Well, what are you doing?"

"You need to try harder and get more involved."

"It's not them, it's you."

And you really start to believe it, making you feel like there is something fundamentally flawed within you, almost crazy even.

And then sibling number two comes along, and their mental health is more important, and the difficulties they experience at school or with friends is recognized, and not thrown back in their face.

It sucks to know you're the bad kid making all your other siblings look so much better.

No one wants to feel like the black sheep or the outcast.

Even those seeking attention, and acting out in school, or at home, are all really just crying out for help.

Maybe you had a wonderful home life, an average home life, or a horrible one,

nevertheless, our childhoods affect us all.

They make us who we are, good, or bad.

It's not to put full blame on others, or dwell on the issues of twenty plus years ago, but to know where to begin healing. Where some of your issues may be coming from.

And know that, we don't have to be defined by our childhoods.

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Growing Up A Farmkid

If only the rest of the world could see life through our eyes.

Growing up on a farm is one of the best ways a kid can be brought up. From learning a variety of valuable skills such as responsibility, kindness, determination, and hard work, to discovering new and more adventurous sources of entertainment with playing on hay bales, riding horses, and playing out with the calves. There are just some things that only a kid raised on a farm will ever understand and will live their lives wishing more people could experience life the way we see it. There are just some things you only comprehend if you grew up as a farm kid.

1. You ALWAYS have an exit strategy.

You never know when you have to jump over a panel or two in order to escape a mad mama cow or bull.

2. You are always hyperaware of the "hottest" spots.

Being shocked one too many times by hot wire will do that to you.

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3. Taking the "scenic" route home is just another way to say you are going to check fields.

We tend to learn that little trick early on.

4. Every tractor, combine, or other machinery has a special "trick" to it to get it to function.

Although... we are told its the insurance policy so nobody will steal it.

5. Everything can be fixed with a little duct tape and WD-40.

And I mean everything.

6. Don't take anything personally when sorting cattle.

I don't think I need to really explain this one... but if I do... let's just say it goes a little something like "$@#%^ *&$@$$ #@%$#@ you *#&%&@&% if you'd just %@#%#@ listen!!!"

7. There is no such thing as a day off.

Not even on the holidays.

8. It's not even remotely disgusting to have a calf suck your fingers.

In fact, it's pretty much the most adorable thing you've ever seen.

9. Table manners have never been a thing.

And let's be honest... this never works out well for any of us in the dating scene.

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10. Family meals out in the middle of a field is normal in the summer.

Even if it is rushed and your fork becomes a shovel because "you have to keep the combine running" during harvest.

11. You constantly wonder about child labor laws.

I mean really... there has got to be some kind of law against pulling rye and sweeping out grain bins in the triple digit heat.

12. Jumping on hay bales was the best form of exercise.

Especially when you get a group of friends to play tag.

13. The bond between a show steer and a farm kid is undeniable.

Even if they did drag you across the pasture one or two times.

14. And when they did drag you all you could hear was you dad's voice saying, "Do NOT let go!".

Because that, of course, was more terrifying than a few rope burns and grass stains.

15. You have an undeniable love and respect for all animals.

Most of your childhood even consisted of trying to sneak them into the house or nurturing the occasional orphan kitten (or a skunk you thought was a kitten).

16. You can't ever make plans.

You are constantly telling your friends, "I can't, I have to help my dad." And of course, they constantly think you're just being flaky.

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17. Unless it rains.

If it rains you suddenly get the day off and you call/text everyone in your friend group trying to desperately make last minute plans. Mudding anyone?

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Cover Image Credit: Turek Farms

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