This Is My Final Farewell To All The Friends I Needed To Lose
Losing friends isn't always the worst thing.
You were the people in my life who I relied on the most. You were the people who got me through the days that tore me down. You were the people whose days I craved to hear about. I adore you and till this day would do anything for you.
I will do everything except let you bring me down again.
While you were the people who I would go out with, you were also the people who commented on the outfits I decided to wear because "I could do better." Remember those days you wouldn't talk to me? Yeah, I do, too. Those were the days the smile on my face was a little more dim than usual.
And how could I forget the days that I was just left out of plans "by accident"…those were the good days for you all, right? Or even the days you made it a joke to be responsible for me at parties? That really brought a laugh to the group, too!
I was right to walk away. Yes, I was selfish in the moment. I ran out of Jada to give you.
I ran out of laughs to share with you, puns to send you, smiles to flash at you and the love that you did not even want to take. I have nothing else to offer and I am not sorry.
But we did have some memories worth keeping. Like all the clumsy moments that sparked enough laughter to make water shoot out your mouth. Or even the tough times in school where dropping out seemed more practical than passing statistics. Those memories still mean the world to me. However, at some point, we ran out of memories to make.
"Thank you" would be an understatement. We started out as great friends who could not be separated at any means. We needed different things, I suppose, and I am sorry it took ending our friendship for me to realize that. Farewells are words that are still sour as they leave my mouth, but they had to come sooner rather than later. I can afford to lose you all, but losing myself would be way too expensive.
I still think about you and hope your drive to follow your dreams still makes your heart race. Here's to a long overdue end.
Farewell.
