You claim that he never loved you. I can't get on board with that idea because who wouldn't? Being your best friend over the past few years I have seen how lovable you are. I highly doubt that someone could not see that you are beautiful, with a big heart, and the most caring soul. I don't think that his feelings weren't real. Then again, I'm not him. We can never know what he is truly feeling, but not having you in my life is something I would never want to go through. To be completely honest, the feelings we need to be focused on is yours. He has decided to step away from you and I see you hurting.

They say that love is blind for a reason, and you saw the best in him and gave him more chances than he deserved at your own expense. I think that you love hard and that's something you should never give up, but I hope next time it's with someone who will nourish it- not make you sorry for doing it. It's possible that his feelings could have changed, but you are not at fault for believing someone loved you when they told you that they did, time and time again. My patience wore thin with him because not only did he break your heart just now, but he took several stabs at it before the break up with the way he acted. I think that what we can learn from this is to trust someone's actions, not their words. Don't be fooled into thinking that your ability to love is anything less than a gift. I hope that you can extend this feeling you have for everyone around you, into yourself. Forgive yourself for putting up with him and know that you deserve to love yourself through this pain.

He may not be here for you, but I will be. I understand that you feel empty, and hopeless, and worthless. I'm here to remind you that you aren't. As unbelievable as it may seem to you right now, I need you to trust me when I say your emptiness is temporary, your hope will return, and you are worthy. Consider how much we have been through together. Every time one of us has hit rock bottom, by supporting each other we came out stronger without fail. I will be there for you through every sleepless night, thoughts of self doubt, and agonizing reminders of him. I will be your shoulder to cry on and your own personal cheerleader. I will support you and remind you of your worth because you are so much stronger than you think. You will heal not because of what I do, but because you are inherently resilient. All I am is a mirror, reflecting who you are back to you. Soon all this anguish you are feeling will be dulled, your heart will be full, and this struggle will be a distant memory. Just hang in there, best friend, there's a light at the end of your tunnel and it's bright.