Your Cleanliness Does Not Mean You Have OCD

Your Cleanliness Does Not Mean You Have OCD

I highly doubt you’re washing your hands for the same reason that I am.

When I was in fifth grade, I began imagining my parents’ deaths. Whether it was in a car accident, a raging fire or just peacefully in the middle of the night, I couldn’t get the thoughts out of my head no matter how hard I tried. In fact, even typing those sentences makes me a little anxious.

I thought I was crazy, demented, maybe even possessed. I felt hopeless and distraught, and the only solution to make me feel better was to start compulsively checking random things in my room.

In order to get ready in time for school, I would have to wake up around 5 in the morning. I would have to pray multiple times throughout my daily routine, and if I messed up I would have to start over.

I would have to rearrange the stuffed animals sitting on my bed perfectly. I would have to turn the lights on and off a specific number of times. It was an endless cycle of check, stress and repeat.

It wasn’t until my mother bought me the book, “Kissing Doorknobs,” when I realized I had OCD. After reading about Tara’s struggles in the story that were just like mine, I felt a tiny bit relieved. Turns out I wasn’t crazy, I just had a chemical imbalance (thanks, brain) that caused me to contemplate my deepest fears over and over.

If you don’t know what OCD is, it is a mental disorder that causes disturbing intrusive thoughts (these are the obsessions). Because people do not want these thoughts in their heads, they engage in repetitive “rituals” (the compulsive part) to bring them some relief.

Obsessive compulsive disorder affects roughly 1% of the population. That’s it. So, I get really frustrated when I hear people constantly laughing about how “OCD” they are when they actually are not.

Feeling the need to wash your hands isn’t OCD, that’s just common sense. Everybody wants to avoid getting sick. But, I’m pretty sure those self-declared “clean freaks” aren’t washing their hands because if they don’t they’re afraid that they’ll contaminate and kill their whole family.

For me, personally, I wouldn’t even consider myself a “germaphobe.” OCD can manifest itself in multiple different ways. While some OCD sufferers do exhibit strong fears of germs, others can become fearful of certain numbers, colors, harm to themselves or a loved one dying.

Also, the compulsions that come with OCD include many other actions other than hand-washing, such as praying, counting, hoarding or tapping. Each individual sufferer of OCD experiences the disorder differently, which is why it can be so difficult to truly understand the illness.

Along with that, wanting things organized does not mean you have OCD, either. Again, this is a very common trait for people to have. And I’m sure for most of you, not organizing your desk won’t induce a panic attack because you won’t be worrying about dying just because you didn’t rearrange your pencils.

Another common misconception that people have about OCD is that it is very obvious. For me, this could not be further from the truth. I purposely go out of my way to hide my compulsions from people, because I don’t want to explain to people that I have to log in and out of my computer five times or else my parents will die.

In summary, OCD is not a “quirky” personality trait. It is a real disease that actually affects people everyday.

And while we’re on the subject, telling me to “relax” will not help the chemical imbalance in my brain. Don’t you think I would’ve tried to do that by now if that was the case?

OCD, along with many other mental illnesses, is still very stigmatized and misunderstood. However, that can change when people stop using it in the wrong way and, instead, remain mindful of the struggles that real sufferers of the disorder face.

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Dear State Governments



In the past couple of days the week of May 13 a certain amount of states have made new abortion laws that pretty much makes it a crime for women to have abortions OR make it a crime for having a miscarriage.

Tell me why we are making it a crime for a women to do the right thing for herself? Or why are we making it a crime for a women to have miscarriage which is not only one of the hardest things a women can go through but they happen all the time.

Here are some statistics on miscarriages:

1. As much as 1 percent of all pregnancies will result in a missed miscarriage.
2. At least 20 percent of pregnancies are likely to result in a miscarriage.
3. The overall risk of miscarriage is 17 to 22 percent.
4. The risk after the gestational sac develops is as much as 12 to 15 percent.
5. The risk of miscarriage is 9.4 percent after a heartbeat is detected at 6 weeks. The percentage drops to 4.2 percent at 7 weeks, 1.5 percent at 8 weeks and 0.5 percent at 9 weeks.
6. The risk of miscarriage increases 12 percent after age 30. It increases to as much as 39 percent after age 35 and doubles after age 40 (about 78 percent).
7. People with partners over 40 years old increases the risk of miscarriage by as much as 60 percent.
8. The risk of marriage increases by as much as 43 percent with partners of age 35. The risk increases to as much as 90 percent with partners at age 50.
9. The risk of miscarriage increases to 88 percent when the father is over 50 years old.
10. The risk of miscarriage doubles for people who need more than 1 year to have a successful conception.


These women in the states that have made these laws are not able to share this wonderful times in their lives in fear that if they sadly have a miscarriage will be charged with murder. They cant take this wonderful time and enjoy it, instead they are walking on egg shells watching there every move (which by the way isn't good for the baby and the stress could lead to a miscarriage, but wait that would be the women's fault because she is so stressed out right?)

Some miscarriages happen due to where the egg attaches in the uterus. Sometimes the egg attaches within the Fallopian tube (ectopic pregnancy) all which lead to a miscarriage (and most women don't even know they are pregnant until they go to the ER with pain). So your telling me we are going to charge these women who 1. have no control over where they egg attaches and 2. majority of the time don't even know they are pregnant until minutes before they are rushed to surgery?

Abortions are also just as normal. Some have to have them due to medical reasoning's. Some get them because they don't feel that they are ready for a child due to whatever they are going thought in life. For those people who will argue "they didn't use protection and now she is being irreparable" let me say this: condoms they can break, Plan B doesn't always work especially the longer you wait to take it, if a girl forgets to take the pill (life happens and yes it does happen), if they guy says he is "using a condom" but really isn't, even if you used protection there is still a slight chance of getting pregnant, and rape is also something that happens to girls who do get pregnant from this terrible crime. Also for the people who say "well if you aren't ready for kids than don't have sex" let me say this: once you reach a certain time in a relationship sexual things happen, don't tell me that you never reciprocated on those feelings when you were young.

Stop. Trying. To. Control. Women's. Rights. When. You. Aren't. One. Because if you aren't one you will never understand.

We all know that if some law was to pass about controlling a mans life in anyway they would flip out. But when the roles are revised its OK. Explain to me how it is OK?

Girls and women continue the fight. Be heard. Do what you have to do to tell them what they are trying to do is wrong.

If we fight this now we can stop it before it continues to spread to other states.

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