It has taken me nineteen plus years to realize my self-worth. To me, it is just a hard concept for me. This past week I have realized that I am more than I give myself credit for, I am more than you give me credit for. Most days I think that there is something wrong with me just because I do not have a boyfriend, or my left hand occupied by a ring. These days I wish there was something magical that could fix this problem, or all my problems at the least. I constantly wonder why it isn't enough to just be myself. Then, late at night, the voice inside my head tells me I am enough, and I am worth more.
I am worth more than your judgment towards me.
I do not need you to critique everything about me. I do not need you to judge me based on how I spend my money. I will never need your approval on the way I look.
I am worth more than a hookup.
Our generation and many to come with not know how to commit and date ONE person. I am not your casual fling, friend with benefits, nor a bar date.
I am worth more than your 3 a.m text.
I am worth more than your words.
I do not have time to listen to your promises that you can't keep, and I am done listening. I cannot and will not fall for lies anymore.
I am worth more than your worst nightmare.
I am smart, independent, and at times intimidating. If you can't handle me, then bye, someone else can.
I am worth more than that other girl; the one who is prettier, blonder, and all around better than me, in your eyes that is.
I guess she can be categorized as "This years new model." She will NEVER be there for you like I would be, and she will not stay around long.
I struggle everyday to get rid of all my failures and flaws and to embrace the better things in life, but that doesn't always happen. I cloud my mind of what could be better in my life because I am too focused on all the negatives.
Through all of this, I still believe and hope there is a guy out there, a guy that deserves me, and a guy that I deserve.
For all those reading this, you are worth more than you think, and you deserve better.