This past weekend I decided that I would do something that scared me, even though every step of the way my anxiety telling me something would go bad. I decided to go hiking Devil's Bridge in Sedona, Arizona. Now typically most people aren't afraid of hiking or things of that nature, but I am.

I have this semi-irrational fear that I will fall to my death, or will slip on a rock roll down the mountain and also die. Because of this I hardly hike, even though it used to be one of my favorite things to do, but ever since I was diagnosed with anxiety it has made it hard to do the things I used to love.

Every step of the way up I would think this could be it, I could fall here, I could die here, and while my friends understood that I was struggling I don't think they understood the extent of my fear.

When we started to actually hike up and gain elevation, my knees became weak and my legs felt like noodles and I began to feel my hands start to tremble, not because I was tired but because my anxiety was high that I was very close to having an anxiety attack.

I'm not going to lie, I was scared I was going to have an episode and be around random people and not be able to calm my self down, but every second, every step I took forward, it was a step that I was taking and not letting my anxiety rule me, and limit me.

I am terrified of heights but this past weekend I decided to do what scared me, and every time I thought I was going to die, I would look up and see the beautiful trees around, I would take deep breathes and inhale the crisp, cold air. This was surrounding me, had I not faced my fear, had I let anxiety keep me down at the beginning of the trail I would have never experienced the amazing outdoors of Sedona. I am so happy that I didn't let anxiety dictate what I can and can't do.

I think back to all the time I let anxiety kept me indoors and what I missed, what experiences I missed out on all because of an irrational fear, or anxiety. I hope that you challenge your self and push yourself to tell your anxiety, "Not today!".

Last Friday, I told anxiety, "Nope not today !"