So, I decided way before New Years that I am the only person that holds myself back from a lot. There is so much that I could be doing or something I want to do, that I don't. I find myself doing a lot of what I don't want to do. I'll explain this further in a few.

I realize that life is pretty short, and fear is the number one thing that prevents me from living my life to the fullest. Fear of: what people will think, being out of control, several possible outcomes, and the unknown in general.

I focus too much on the "what ifs," which is both a blessing and a curse. I always think out my situations before they occur on the account that there will be many "what ifs." What if I get murdered, or what if that scenario makes me feel really awkward, or what if so and so gets mad at me, or what if what if what if.

It's exhausting. Overall, when it comes to my work ethic, it prepares me. My overthinking allows me to prepare for several situations.

I remember this one time I had a part in the play and I was so worried that the lines I had, depended on this phone to ring. So as paranoid as I was, I practiced this scenario JUST IN CASE. Ironically, it happened. The damn phone didn't ring. So, I was both petrified and ready.

As you can see, it works out in my benefit in cases such as those.

My reality is that my social life is hindered by me not wanting to go out and scared of taking on new tasks...such as new jobs. It's a big step for me.

Anything outside my comfort zone freaks me out. But, what I have learned throughout my life, is that every risk or chance I took on something that struck fear and nerves in me, ended up being the best thing for me.

So, I have decided that my life resolution (with baby steps of course), is to say "no" to people I break my back for, and "yes" to opportunities. See, what comes with this is I have a problem of not being able to say "no," to the wrong things and or to the wrong people. To people who won't appreciate what I'm doing.

But, I often say "no" to the things that are for my own benefit.

What makes me happy, is that I have started in my own little way. People's self-achievements and what makes them progress are different. So, it's okay if your "yes" is simply trying some type of food, and my "yes" is taking up a job offer or going to New York for the first time with a friend.

Don't let fear hold you back, because ten years from now, you'll probably regret all that you've missed and all that you could've done.