I am not second best.
I should not have to take a back seat in anyone's life. If someone tells me they love me, I should be number one. I am worth that privilege. I am worth the risk and reward it takes to make me happy. I am worth the effort it takes to provide security and stability. I know the love I hold for others is unmatchable. I know what I am worth; I won't let anyone give me less that that.
I am not something you can put on a shelf or in a case to admire; no that's not quite me. My dynamic is much different than that. I won't fit in that box of yours. I won't keep my mouth shut. I won't be void of opinions. I will have high expectations for you and unfortunately, if you aren't willing to rise to them, you will no longer be given the opportunity to.
I will not always be kind and delicate. Sometimes I'll be angry. Sometimes I'll be confused. Some days I'll have a rain cloud hanging over my head that will really put a damper on me. Sometimes I won't want to do anything. Love me anyways. It won't go unnoticed.
Don't compare me to anyone, or anything. I am unique on my own. No one walks in my skin everyday but me. God decided that there had to be one of me, on this Earth full of souls. Don't you dare take that for granted. I deserve to be treated like a diamond in the rough, and if you can do that, I promise I'll show you every facet of me that sets me apart from the rest. I'll be exclusively and holistically yours. Nothing I possess, not an ounce of love or appreciation, will I hold back from you.
To me, that's what love is. A full on commitment of your heart and soul. A safe haven for you to stay and feel warm. A place where you know you can run to and feel secure. A place where you know you're the one and only occupying the space. A place where the other person makes sure you're that one person.
But here's the thing, if you can't add value, don't tamper with me. You can plant me in your garden, but I won't thrive inside your vase. You can't throw me away when I'm not pretty anymore. If you can't be devoted or I can't be the only person occupying your mind and heart, don't be selfish. Don't take my devotion and rip it up. Only someone willing to do the same for me deserves what I am able to give.
If you aren't ready for me, then that's okay. You may not fully comprehend or understand who I am and the depth in which I do things. You wouldn't be the first and you won't be the last. But I am worth the world, even if you're unable to recognize that.
You can't expect me to wait around; for the person that is for me will always be ready. They will always know the risk is worth the reward. They will recognize the lengths I would go for the same love I give to others. The same love I give to myself.
That being said, my love is sufficient enough for me. Don't drain me of that love if you don't have the supplies to replenish it. Don't turn your safe haven, into something void and dark.
I won't wait for you to validate my worth; I already know it.