To my family and friends reading this, I'd say I'm sorry but I'm really not. Here's why.
I work in Muncie.
Retail, at that. I can't just take off for like a month during one of the busiest times of the year for us. I can ask for a few days off, sure, no problem. But no one wants to make actual plans until last minute and that's not how retail works. I can't just show up and be like, "So I'm gonna take off next Tuesday. Thanks, bye!" No, I need at least a two-week notice, but more is highly appreciated--shoutout to my friends who made our post-New Years Friendsmas plans the other day so I can go ahead and ask off, I appreciate it. It's not just work keeping me in my apartment, promise.
My room is no longer my room.
Since I've pretty much moved out, my parents remodeled my room, but it's not the kind of remodel that I could be like, "Yea so this is still my room, just a little different." No, they tore out the thing that made it my room. They tore out the bookshelves that were the whole reason I chose that room. I would've much preferred what is now my sister's room since it has more natural light with two windows, but I chose the one I lived in because of the bookshelves that ARE NO LONGER THERE. Also, almost all of my stuff is gone with me and my sister pretty much uses it as another closet so it's for sure not my room and I always feel like a guest in my own bedroom now. It's like all the memories of the last 6 years have somehow just disappeared and it makes me sad.
I get bored sitting at home alone all day.
This summer I learned how absolutely freaking boring it is to just sit at home alone all day. My parents are grown freaking adults and go to work Monday-Friday and mom works on Saturday as well. Now, I know you're probably thinking, "You just said you have a sister, why don't you hang out with her?" Logically, yes, that would make sense, but here's the thing. My sister and I actually have a pretty good relationship now that I'm never home--she actually visited and had dinner with me without either of our parents coming or telling her to. We learned over the summer, though, that the more time we spend together, the more we start to slip into our old sisterly ways of fighting and cursing at one another. Plus, she's 18 and has a car and friends of her own, she's not gonna hang around with me all day. "Why don't you just hang out with your old friends?" Well, I have this thing where I won't usually hang out with all of my friends from high school without my best friend, but considering she lives in Indy and also works there, the likelihood she'd come and hang out with me and all of us is pretty slim.
So, I'm sorry if you're planning to see me over break, but I just can't, for my own sanity, be around for that 3 weeks. I'd much rather spend a few days here and there at home and be here working than be alone all day then only have people around at the times when I want to be alone. #sorrynotsorry and Happy Holidays.