When I was young my mother always told me bedtime stories that would ease my worries and help me fall asleep. These stories consisted of people and mythical creatures that were focused on harming princesses or creating havoc in their lives. The negative situations in each story always been resolved by a handsome prince or a knight in shining armor as they rescued the damsel in distress.
As I grew up I always dreamed that I would meet my prince charming, but I realized that those type of guys do not exist in my reality and only in those of story books. My world filled with guys who do not care enough for girls or just do not care to show their affection. Each guy is different and far from what those in bedtime stories are like. That is okay. I do not expect them to change, just as should not be expected to change for them. We are all different than those in story books and that is perfectly fine. I would not want to be anyone but me, and I know that day someone will care for me for who I am.
With the stresses of everyday life sitting upon my shoulders, it is not a surprise that these stressful thoughts overtake my mind at times. I cannot help but focus on the facts that I am not where I want to be in life or that I have not found the perfect guy who adores everything about me. To most people these thoughts seem silly and unimportant, but they are still something that I find myself focusing on before I go to bed at night.
At some points in my life, there has been times where I have ached to change who I was to impress those around me. These were the weakest points in my life. I had wanted to change how I looked and acted for the sake of someone else. I soon realized that I was wrong to want to change myself so that others would like me, but that did not make me want to stop. There was something about feeling loved by others that made me wish others would see the good in me.
It was not until my religious leader talked to me about this topic that I truly accepted myself. She told me that God had created us all different and with their own purpose in life. She said that although there are times where we want to change what we want in a guy, or anyone for the matter, we should stand strong in who we are and wait for others to see our true value and become better for us.
She had told me to "set myself upon a high pedestal and wait for them to rise up to me." These words still remain in the back of my mind and will be something that I will not soon forget. Do not settle for less than you truly deserve, because you are worth it. Do not sell yourself short.