Why My SAT Score Doesn't Define Me

Why My SAT Score Doesn't Define Me

May a single number never define you because your strengths and talents cannot be expressed by scores.

During score week, thousands of students received their standardized college admission test (SAT) scores. Since testing day, the days that had followed were full of anticipation and suspense. It was instinct to check my score as soon as I heard that scores were in. I couldn't manage to login to my College Board account quick enough, but as soon as I logged in, the numbers were displayed in large font. A pit in my stomach began to form. For some odd reason, my initial thought was extremely full of disappointment.

I should have expected it, right? Human error? Imperfection? I stayed up so late the night before testing day, absolutely sleepless. I was trying to recall all the equations from previous math courses I had stored away. Numbers, letters, problems and words endlessly flooded my brain. I felt so sick and uneasy. I cried and cried because I couldn't sleep, didn't feel prepared and knew how much this test would mean to my future.

Once gathering my thoughts, I sat back and realized that this standardized test score doesn't define me. What defines me are my triumphs, resilience, experiences, hardships, goals and everything that I am underway of accomplishing. I have endured far too much in my short life to ever allow a single score to make me think I didn't work hard enough. In fact, I have worked SO hard. In most cases my hard work wasn't focused on rhetorical analyses or long algebraic problems; rather, I worked hard on my wellbeing, mental health, healthy relationships, putting others first and processing all that I have been through.

At the end of scores day, I came to a consensus that although I am an intelligent being, most of my strengths cannot be shown or proven by a test score. In support of my consensus, I have published well-written articles for the Odyssey weekly. I am passionate about what I have experienced. I am open, no matter the subject or question. No test score could have convinced me that I'd have such an opportunity to share my writings. No test score will ever prove my unique abilities. So yes, I am saddened that we base so much of our futures on a single test score or two, but I know that I'll land the right job when they look past a single test score and see that I am more than qualified for what I spent years in graduate school for. So to every step forward towards my dream occupation, where I will never "work" a day, I will remind myself along the way that I am adequate to accomplish whatever I set my mind to.

May a single number never define you, because your strengths and talents cannot be expressed by scores.

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A Poem To Art Saving Us

Art is what you need it to be.

“Youth is wasted on the young”, I know, and I am trying. So desperately to ensure that my odyssey is a chest of memories that will never diminish.

I find myself staring at the bottom of empty coffee mugs, caught between the backwash of coffee tainted oxygen molecules and morning delays. These cells are nothing but pixilated facades.

Nietzsche says that art does not need to be truth, but isn’t that what it is all about? Is that not what makes it so raw? Making the intangible, tangible? But the only thing true of art is that art saves us. And if that means that what art is made of is not truth; that art is the outcome of a survival mechanism to compose and convince ourselves to feel something so that we do not fall into the black hole of nihilism then so be it.

Because I won’t know any other way. All I know is that I am breathing and thinking and just being.

It is kind of ironic that we depend on each other’s defense mechanisms to live, to prove that our existence isn’t just some fucked evolutionary step. We are so desperate and so in need to find ourselves, to understand that we need to be here that we also begin to see ourselves in the art works. In the brush strokes of Van Gough; in the not so irregular and not so misplaced lines of Picasso’s works. This is both comforting and scary.

Some days it is hard to differentiate yourself from all the art that is surrounding you and I; sorting through all the pieces that are spread along the sunrises, book stores or through the numb vibrations of the rain. Art does not have to be true, but it does have to be a series of releases.

We spend our whole lives breathing in and attacking notes, but we always forget that we can breathe. That in our composition of life we can add our own breath marks. It is okay to release. To breathe in and to stop your tune when needed.

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The 7 Best Pieces of Drag Race Lingo Ru-vealed

Werk it, queen!

Season Three of "RuPaul's Drag Race: All Stars" just wrapped last week, but season 10 of Drag Race is scheduled to premiere on March 22nd. You might’ve turned on your TV and thought, “what the heck are they talking about?”. Some of the lingo is confusing and unclear, so here’s a guide to just some of the key catchphrases.

1. The library/Being read

The name of the mini challenge is “Reading is Fundamental, in which queens take turns reading each other. When it’s their turn, they “enter the library”, which just means putting on goofy glasses. Reading is pretty much pointing out flaws but in a funny or over the top way.

2. Shade

Throwing shade is similar to reading someone, but I think of shade as usually more blunt, insulting and less clever.

3. Tea

Derives from the letter “T” standing for truth. Tea refers to gossip, news or information. Commonly used in the sense of “So, what’s the tea?”, which means “girl, what’s the gossip?”. It’s commonly combined with shade, as someone might say “No, tea, no shade, but…” which is a preface saying “no disrespect”. Conversely, someone might say “all tea, all shade” meaning that they know exactly how they sound and don’t care if you’re offended.

4. Fish

A queen is said to be looking fishy/serving fish when they closely resemble a woman. Some of the fishiest queens include Tatianna, Courtney Act, and Farrah Moan.

5. Back Rolls

An insult used in season 5 when Jade Jolie told Alyssa Edwards: “Girl, you had rolls all over the place in the back, it was disgusting!” To which Alyssa responded

6. Snatch Game

A parody of the 1960’s celebrity game show “The Match Game”. On the original show, contestants write in answers to questions, hoping to match the guest judge. Snatch Game operates in the same way, but the contestants have to impersonate a celebrity. This is a challenge that has taken place every season since the second one, and it’s probably the most highly anticipated. This is one of the challenges that really establishes the top queens, as they’re judged based off of likeness and humor. Celebrities that have been impersonated range from Dame Maggie Smith to Britney Spears, Judge Judy, Anna Nicole Smith, and even RuPaul.

7. Comedy vs. Pageant Queens

This is pretty much exactly what it sounds like. Some queens are more specialized in makeup, costumes, and overall pageantry. Others are more campy and over the top. Comedy queens are usually stronger in acting or comedy challenges, but pageant queens have the upper hand in design focused challenges.

So there ya have it, a short list of Drag Race terminology. I RuPaulogize if you got a little lost somewhere, but if you managed to make it through this article….


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