There is something about everyone in our generation that is obsessed with falling or being in love. Whether it is having googly eyes over your favorite celebrity couple or having them for someone who means the world to you. It is like the new trend is falling in love; to me the word love is thrown around a little bit more than it should be. I personally have never been in love with anyone yet and I am OK with that.
To me, falling in love with someone is a big deal, most likely when you are in love with someone you want to spend the rest of your life with them. When I tell people that I have never had a person that I have been in love with, I get a kind of surprise reaction back. It then gets me thinking that I have never had that person that makes me feel special, I've never had that person that I am in love with. And I'm not going to lie, that scares the hell out of me.
Yes, I am one of those people that are scared to fall in love. I know I'm not the only one out there that is; there are plenty of people who are just as scared as me to fall in love. But there is just something about falling in love with someone that makes me so nervous. Everyone has those fears when they first start to get feelings for someone, but I just think that it's normal. It's normal to have those fears when you first start a relationship.
There is just something about falling in love and relationships that scares me and I am just not sure why. Maybe there will be someone in my future that comes in and makes me feel differently, but as of right now, I'm still scared. I'm not going to sit here and tell you all that I will get over it because who knows if I will -- it's kind of frustrating. It's frustrating when you finally meet someone that you think it could maybe go somewhere, but those fears just come right back. It's like they sneak up on you, one minute you're fine and the next you are questioning whether or not this person actually likes you or if they're just playing some kind of game with you.
Something that I have realized after feeling this way for quite sometime is that it's OK to have these feelings. It's OK to be scared to fall in love because eventually you won't be. Plus ,who cares about falling in love now when we are in college? These are supposed to be some of our selfish years. Who knows if we will ever get opportunities like the ones we are getting now? We have the rest of our lives to fall in love. There will be someone in our future that comes along and makes us rethink all of those fears we have and eventually make them go away.