eryone has a tendency to do things that is for a much bigger reason than just doing something for themselves. Whether it be so people don't judge you, or to fit the "norm" of society, you're doing things for the wrong reason.
Yes, maybe when you do something you'll finally fit in with the crowd but you didn't do it for your own satisfaction. Doing something for your own satisfaction is priceless. We are all meant to stand out in the crowd, take on opportunities and fulfill what makes us happy. If you're happy with yourself, then there's no need to be "ashamed" or "afraid" of what others think.