That feeling in your chest where you actually think you're dying and you can't seem to catch your breath. That overwhelming never-ending voice in your head that yells on about the one million things that could go wrong and the one million things you need to do. That feeling that robs your joy and peace. Anxiety.
Anxiety often gets the best of me, and sometimes I can't control it. No matter how well I am doing there is always a day here and there that overcomes me. Weakens me. Robs my peace.
However, in these moments I have learned to pause, kneel down and pray. I have learned to let God in. When we feel anxious, sad or alone it is so easy to isolate ourselves from the world and drown in our emotions. We feel so out of control, but the best thing I have ever done for myself is surrendering that last ounce of control I have and giving it to God.
I let Him in to comfort me and love me. I tell Him how I am feeling without any reservation. If I'm pissed or angry or confused there is no use praying as if I am not. It is okay to tell Him how you are feeling and where you are at. Then the storm can pass.
You can finally catch your breath and your thoughts slow down to a nice residential speed. Now I am safe and I am loved because I let God in. This doesn't mean those emotions go away or my anxiety disappears, but it does become manageable.
I do not have to climb mountains because God carries me up them. And, when I pray authentically and truthfully he places these amazing blessings in my life. An unexpected phone call from a family member or old friend, that one ray of sun that shines on my face through the storm clouds, an amazing new friend that was put in my life.
God never abandons us never stops loving us, even if it feels like He does. Sometimes we put up so many walls and run in all directions. We must sit, breath and remember to let God do His work. Remember to welcome His presence because then amazing things can happen.
People always say that God never gives us more than we can handle. I agree, but I think we need to tell Him when we need help carrying the load. Let God in.