I as I am sure many college students in my same position, out of school for the summer, working as an intern, approaching their senior year, are feeling stuck in life. At least I hope they are, so I am not alone in feeling like this.
There are many decisions that will need to be made soon about my future. Decisions like what I really want to do in the world, where I want to live, how I want to experience my senior year in college. I will soon be starting a loft of lasts and beginning a lot of firsts. Right now, however, I feel stuck. I am in the midst of just living and feel like I am waiting for the life I am dreaming of to begin. Where I am at in my life isn’t the best thing ever, but it is not the worst.
How do I get unstuck? Is there a certain remedy to get rid of the feeling of not being where I want to be? Everyone says good things come to those who wait. I am just a little bored waiting. It is quite concerning that these are supposed to be the best days of my life because waiting for my life to begin isn’t exactly thrilling. It is hard to make decisions right now because I don’t have all the pieces yet.
In my last article, I referenced taking time out of each week to think, be grateful, feel loved, and to be at peace. This week I went to the beach for a couple of hours and tried to do just that. I let time pass and my mind jump from topic to topic in my head. I came to the realization that acceptance is key in this situation. I simply cannot make the decisions I want to right now. I cannot spin time to when I want it. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, even if I don’t know what that reason is. Maybe laying it low for the summer isn’t that terrible. I can gain the experience I need, lose the weight I want, and research the things I hope for my future. I only have so much control over my life. How about I just try to live life right now? It seems very simple and easy to do, but for my always moving mind, it is not that easy. There is a time for everything, I guess this is my time to wait, stay focused, and rest for the events yet to come. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst, and let life take its course.
For those who are waiting, hearing you have to wait more is not what you want to hear. I don’t like the feeling either, but hopefully feeling confident in acceptance will make the waiting feel less long!