It's so easy to dream and get excited about something. Especially if it seems that God is approving and blessing everything. But it can be very disappointing when even though everything seemed to go right, God says 'no' and everything goes down crashing our dreams.
A month ago, God said 'no' to one of my biggest dreams. I had been wanting to go to Europe for a long time now. So it occurred to me that it could be a good idea to apply for a summer internship somewhere in Europe. So I ended up applying for an internship in London. Two weeks later I got an email with the official acceptance to the program! Words cannot describe how excited I got!
Immediately I started to gather all the documents and everything that was left to confirm my spot in the program. A few days later, I got the acceptance package in my mail and all the details I needed to know about the internship. Tickets were already bought and housing was already arranged and ready for when I arrived in London.
Everything was going according to plan and I was extremely grateful with God for the amazing opportunity to grow in my career and have more experience in what I am passionate about. My family was happy for me and I got all their support to do it.
Three weeks before I was supposed to fly to London, I got an email from the organization saying that there was something missing and without this document I was not allowed to request the student visa on time to go to London. At that moment I was waiting in line to buy coffee, and I just felt like the world came crashing down on me. I wanted to cry and almost had a panic attack. All I could think about was WHY? All the hard work to get this for nothing? All the excitement and illusion to get crashed by a 'no'?
In those moments it's so hard to believe that God is in control of everything. It's so hard to trust and yield my future to Him once again. It's hard to find a lesson and a purpose when the dream is destroyed. I was so confused and felt unsuccessful for not having something to do for the summer.
As hopeless as I felt, that night I decided to put my life back on God’s hands and decided to trust that He had something better in mind for me.
I learned that a life that walks alongside God, lives in His Plan. And in that plan there is no space for a PLAN B, it is PLAN A always.
A 'no' from God can hurt, but there is time for everything and my time to go to Europe can be next year or the year after that. I don't care anymore to plan what I am going to do tomorrow, as long as I am walking and following His plan—I'll be fine!