I know, I know. It's so cliche to think. "New year, new me." Normally, I don't think like that. I may be young, but I've always been a cynic. A new year is just another time for me to get hurt, More chances for things to go wrong, more mistakes to be made, and more and more heart break.

2019 was a year of learning. Every year, I feel like I let myself fall deeper and deeper into a hole. Years of self doubt; doubting my choices, myself, others. "Do they even like me? Will this decision ruin me? What now?" Going into my first year of college, that question was always on my mind. What now? What is life going to look like for me? That's where a new year comes into play.

The new Aubree is ready for a change. She's ready to be confident, loving, and compassionate. It's a year of being strong willed, hard working, and being one year closer to my goals. I'm excited for 2020 to be my year.

One of my biggest struggles has been to allow myself to feel free. I feel like all my life I have been in a constant state of stress. Whether that's anxiety, or that's just who I am, I don't know. I hope in 2020 I'll be able to let go. I'll allow myself to have fun, life my life, and just be me; the new and improved care-free version of me.

I've also always put others before myself, and I mean constantly. I'm very excited for this to be a year about me. A year where I can focus on my relationships. I can cut out the people that aren't good for me, I can be more in tune with my feelings, and I can do the things that make me happy.

A new year doesn't mean you can start your life over. It does mean that you can find ways to make yourself better. So, that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to push myself to new limits, and I can't wait to watch myself morph into the person I want to be.