There's so many words I wish I could say to you.

I’m not perfect, not even remotely. I constantly need reassurance, confirmation and words of affirmation that people in my life will remain in it. I get anxious about being on time, or when people don’t answer me right away. I worry about stupid things like the fact my mind convinces me that I’ll always be alone, even though I know it can't be true. I put myself down too much but also know I’m made for beautiful and exquisite things.

You know this. You know it all. You’ve seen it all.

I used to think about you from time to time. I still do. Actually, probably more than I should.

You have always told me I deserve the utmost love and kindness in this world. You’ve told me that for so long.

You say I'm the strongest person you know and that I can get through any obstacle.

You've been there from the moment you stepped into my life by the best coincidence, something I will forever be grateful for.

For months I have been staring at the ceiling in the middle of the night, not able to understand why everyone I love leaves. When all along, I didn’t realize you have stayed. Knowing every struggle, every up and down, knowing every single thought I express in my messed up mind you stayed.

I want you to stay, always.

I wish you could see the way I look at you. The way my face lights up when I hear your name or see your name on the front screen of my phone.

I wish you knew how amazing you are. That you don’t just tell me how amazing I am, you tell everyone because everyone should be told something beautiful about themselves.

You are the speck of light on a cloudy day that everyone wants to see.

I wish you knew I’d fall in love with you as quickly as rain pours in April.

It would be easy to fall for you, and an incredible honor.