I've had some not so good experiences with relationships, friendships, and groups. Here are some of the emotions I experienced after they were over:
I still grieved. Relief didn't come immediately.
After several of these relationships and friendships ended, I cried for what felt like forever. Some of these connections were a part of my life for years. It was like a part of me was ripped out.
2. I still questioned what I could have done to fix it.
I'll be honest. I wasn't the perfect friend/partner/member by any means. Regardless, it didn't change that it was now a part of my past I needed to put behind me. I continued asking "What could I have done?" It's good to take responsibility where needed, but you shouldn't torment yourself. It reminded me that I can't force people to be a part of my life if they already decided not to be.
3. I checked up on their social media.
The thought of that person no longer being a part of my life didn't seem real to me. Sometimes it was out of pure curiosity. Overall, I denied it.
4. I devoted more time to myself and people who cared.
After a breakup in 2018, I dressed up and bought myself flowers from a flower truck. It was the most wonderful feeling imaginable. I spent more time with other friends and family who were worried about me before. After some falling outs with friends, I spent more time with others who were concerned. I learned who the ones meant to be in my life were.
5. I realized what I deserved - happiness and people who value me.
After, I learned that I deserve places and people where I feel safe and included. I was reminded that all friendships and relationships are two-way streets. I was reminded that no one can make me feel less unless I let them. I deserve to be happy.