"Don't be afraid, just believe." Mark 5:36

God, I am afraid. I am afraid of the fact that sometimes when I look in the mirror I tell myself I am not good enough, not pretty enough, not skinny enough and nor will I ever be. I'm afraid that I exude my love too much and people are scared of it. I am afraid of being broken again. I am afraid that I will forever be alone, but I'm never alone, am I?

"God can restore what is broken and change it into something amazing. All you need is faith." Joel 2:25

This week when I sat on the bathroom tile with tears running down my face, I knew I needed to take a deep breath and suck it up. That anyone would tell me, "Okay, let yourself cry for an hour and then get up. Be strong."

Later that day a roommate showed me a video of Bethel. The singer began to preach and sing this one line over and over again, until I could feel the words seeping into my own body.

"Isn't it just like God? To turn our disappointments into a dance floor?"

I sat there, listing the disappointments from this week while it rattled in my head like a siren awakening me saying, "Hello! Wake up! These are NOTHING compared to the world I am giving you. These are NOTHING compared to the life you have left to live. You have so much ahead of you."

That was the moment. The push I needed to remind myself that all these things that are happening this week that are causing me to crack, make the strength on my heart grow bigger and bigger.

When something awful happens in our lives big or small, we always realize later that it has made us stronger. That our set backs, our heartbreaks and our low moments have turned us into someone amazing.

That doesn't mean we aren't allowed to feel sad, feel broken, and feel completely lost. We are allowed to feel our feelings in the moment for how ever long we want to! We are human. God made us this way, to allow us to feel, to love, to cry and to smile.

We, myself included, just have to know in the back of our minds that we are made for so much more. We are made for more than the boy next door. We are made for more than the times someone has told you you are not good enough. We are made for more than the moments you spend days in bed crying. We are made for more than that class that you are struggling through.

We are made for the moments when we walk out of the house and say, "Look at me. I am moving. I am breathing. I am better than this, and I am made for beautiful and amazing things. Watch me, God. Watch me live my life the way you intended for me to. I will not let my setbacks ruin the accomplishments, the brave moments and soaring dreams you know I can do."