I've heard the saying "don't wish time away" far too many times, but these days it seems to be all that I am doing in certain ways. I still live each day and do what I want. I see my friends and travel to new places to do new things, but I can't help but long and wait for what life has in store for me after this chapter. Right now I am almost bored with my life. I feel like I am stuck between two phases— high school and my adult life where I would get married and have kids. For most people, this phase holds the greatest years of their lives, but for me, it is a bit different. Don't get me wrong, I still love the college experience, but since I know in my heart I have found the person I want to be with forever, I just want to get to the stage of starting forever.

It's hard for me because I know what I want my future to look like and I know who I want it with and I have him, so it is so hard to stand around and wait for the right time. I want it all right now, without waiting. I've always looked forward to the future and being a wife and mom. It was something I always pictured myself being and now that it is close, I want it so bad. I won't apologize for that either. When I tell my friends that I would get engaged right now and married within the year they act like I'm crazy, they do the same thing when I say I want a child right now too. Now, I admit, a child right now wouldn't be the best move but marriage very well could be.

There really is no guide to life, people hit different marks at different times. Some people go fast and some take it slow. No one should be judged for what they want and when they want it. I see no problem with getting married young if you are ready. It is your life and your happiness and your love. If you want to get married, get married. I don't care if you just graduated high school or you're still in college. If you are in love and you want to start your forever then start YOUR forever.