And the Oscar for “Best Actress in a Leading Role” goes to...(drum roll)...Caroline Fiske! The crowd goes wild as I could distinctly hear the combination of my dad and my brother’s loud and obnoxious screams.
First of all, I’d like to thank my amazing cast and crew. You guys have been supportive of me throughout this entire process and I wouldn’t be standing here without any of you guys.
Next, I’d like to take the time to thank all of my best friends from my hometown of Fairfield, CT: Lindsay, Isabel, Amira, Taylor, Caroline, and Deandrea. I’d also like to thank my friends from Marist College.
Now, I’d like to thank my family and all of you in this audience tonight. My mom, my dad, my amazing brother Harry, and all of my fans have taught me that I should never let anybody tell me that I’m not good enough or that I can’t do something that I want to do.
But most importantly, you have all taught me that I should be true to myself. You have all taught me to aim for the stars but to keep my feet on the ground. And I cannot thank you enough.
Now, the question is, where do I want to see myself in 20 years? I will be 39-years-old. I hopefully would have graduated college. Maybe I would have gone to grad school. Maybe I would have married the man of my dreams. Maybe I would have three wonderful kids. Maybe I would be living in New York City or Boston or San Francisco.
But what I want more than any of that is to be living the dream. To be living mydream. My dream of entertaining people on TV or film that I’ve had ever since I was six-years-old. I have been a hardcore thespian for practically my entire life and just like the rest of us out there, I want to be famous.
In fact, college wise, I’ve been wanting to major in Acting and apply to schools like Julliard, NYU Tisch or Boston University for as long as I can remember. But by the time my junior year of high school came along, where I was getting ready to think about where I wanted to apply and what my major would be, I thought that I had my entire life figured out right before my eyes.
Until my parents said no. No to following my dreams. No to pursuing my passion. No to applying to the schools that I wanted to apply to.
Hearing all of that from both of them in one sitting has made it one of the hardest days in my life thus far. I mean, can you imagine having your parents, out of all people telling, you that you can’t follow your dreams?
I literally exploded after they told me that. I thought that they didn’t love me. I thought that they didn’t support me. And I even told both of them that I was going to apply to Juilliard, NYU Tisch, and Boston University whether they liked it or not.
Then I ended my rant by calling them “the dream crushers.” There was an annoyed and long sigh that came from my dad immediately after my rant. I seriously thought that I was going to die that day. Because when my dad gets mad, he gets mad. Especially if me, my mom or Harry ever make him mad because as a result, we will never see the light of day again.
Now, here is a somewhat accurate response that my dad told me after my rant: “Caroline, your mom and I love you very much. We will never stop loving you. But acting is just not a guaranteed career. It is extremely rare for an actor like yourself to immediately get out of a school like Juilliard, NYU Tisch or Boston University and be discovered just like that.
There are thousands of talented actors out there who haven’t even gotten their “big break” yet. I commute to the city every day and I see so many struggling actors who are working at diners until they find out about the next audition for an upcoming Broadway show. I don’t want you to be desperately working at a diner for the rest of your life.
I want you to go out into the real world and have a real job. Mom and I are not saying that you should give up your passion for theatre entirely. What we're saying is that you should look into a guaranteed career that incorporates acting into it. Such as a news anchor, a producer, a director or even a screenwriter. We love you very much and we want to protect you. Do you understand that, my little angel?”
I did the annoying and long sigh back to my dad as I thought about what he told me. I have realized that he was right. Unfortunately, acting isn’t a guaranteed career. But that shouldn’t stop me from following my dreams.
So I wouldn’t call my dreams new dreams, I would call them modified dreams. I still want to be famous, but instead of only being famous by entertaining people on TV or film, I am now thinking behind the camera or on the radio, as well.
My dad has taught me to be ready for anything that the real world throws at me. So to be more realistic like he is, I’m going to answer the question of: “Where do I actually see myself in 20 years?”
WHO THE HELL KNOWS? I can’t accurately predict what will happen to me in 20 years; in fact, none of us here can. But I will be ready. Ready for whatever good or bad events will happen to me in 20 years.