There's something you should know. I've watched you for your whole life, but I've really been creeping around more the past few months. I know it sounds a little scary, and maybe you want to turn and run, but just give me a chance to explain. See, you and I are the same person. I mean, literally. But I'm just the version of you that only you can see. The extroverted, outgoing, crazy you.
You are the extreme definition of an introvert. Even when you were little, you were a shy kid. You were really nervous to be away from your mom unless you knew you had a friend close by. And let's be honest, the closest friends you had were when you were younger. You had so many back then. What happened to your somewhat social nature? I mean yeah, you were shy, but at least you went to sleepovers!
I've noticed in the last few years that you seem kind of lonely. You kind of seem to be reaching back to that past and wondering where things all went awry. What did you do to push some of those people away? What could you have said to make things different? Was it you? Was it them? Or maybe just both of you?
The truth is, there's nothing that you could have done to make those things go differently. Your interests shifted in your middle school days and you were labeled a dork. A nerd. Different. You read your books on the bus while your former friends gossiped and sent texts to each other. You went to see another superhero movie while they went to see a love story.
I know that you've never held onto a best friend for very long. Every person you classified as your best friend has moved on to someone else. Your cousin. Every girl you knew named Megan. I mean seriously, what is with you and girls named Megan?! Megan in elementary, a new Megan in middle school, and a DIFFERENT Megan in high school. Fortunately there was no best friend Megan phase in college. Thank. The. Lord.
But that's sorta changed now. Your new best friend - he's pretty cool. So far, he's been around for nine years. NINE YEARS. That's a streak, my friend. And I think he's sort of in for the long haul. I mean, I THINK that's what the shiny thing on your finger means, but I might be out of date on customs.
I've also noticed that it seems like you want to be more social. But it seems like you're just too nervous that you might embarrass yourself. Here's the thing - you can spend your entire life wishing you had done things differently. You could wish that you had danced more or gone out on a limb by writing or starting your own business. You could wish you had the guts to tell people how you really felt about them.
Or you could just start doing it now. The past is the past for a reason. Let it go! I mean, tell me who can stand up and say that they have never done something stupid. Everyone has at least one thing they would change or modify in their life. But unlike you, those people don't dwell on it. They make changes and continue to grow.
Just because you're almost 26 years old doesn't mean you're done evolving! You're constantly changing as a person. Yeah, your beliefs have mainly stayed the same, but you're not that lonely little nerd anymore. You're a wife. And dang if that guy doesn't make you feel like 100 bucks every time he smiles or calls you beautiful. You're a mother. That little girl is part you. How COOL is that? You're a teacher. Do some of your students hate your class? Sure! But didn't you hate a few of your classes?
Start pushing yourself, you introverted little dork. And please, trust me when I say that I mean that with all sincerity. Being a dork is who you are. Own it. Flaunt it. Have fun. DOn't ever let someone bring you down because you're different.
So if you wanna dance like a nut ... learn a few new moves. If you wanna put yourself out there ... write an exposing article. If you want to evolve into a perfect combination of introverted and extroverted ... go out and make new friends.
I know that you love this, so here goes: "This above all: to thine own self be true." Shakespeare said that. Now go do it.