Giving generously through insecurities

To The Girl Who Feels Like She Is “Too Much”

Reject the feelings of insecurity and rise up in your capability.


Growing up, I often felt like I was "too much."

I was always getting in trouble for talking "too much." The boys in school would pick on me for having "too much" energy. Since I struggled with guilt over food from the time I was a young girl, I felt like I took up "too much" space, whether it was in my clothes or my seat. It seemed to me that this feeling of excess followed me everywhere I went.

These thoughts manifested in an eight-year battle with bulimia while going to high school. My actions were being controlled by the mindset that I was "too much." I needed to "be less." This disease caused me to be much less. I was less fun, less happy, less dependable, which turned into unstable, unapproachable and unreasonable.

2018 has been one of the most transformative years of my life, and one of the biggest lessons I've learned is that I'm not "too much," I have been given an abundance. God made me this way. I have a wealth of love, an abundance of personality and an abundance of energy. Some so many people need to come in contact with me because of this. The woman at the register at Target needs my magnitude of energy because she is exhausted from the stresses of life. And guess what, I have plenty to give.

God has qualified me to serve others by giving me a surplus in specific areas of my life.

Since I have decided to view my past insecurities as blessings on my life, I have been able to walk in freedom. I have shed the labels that I was given by people who couldn't understand my calling.

Recognize the areas where God has given you an abundance, and welcome it as a ministry. Do you get "too excited" about things? Encourage the dreams of others. Have you winded up feeling empty-handed in relationships, thinking maybe you love "too much"? There are so many unseen people who need to be recognized and affirmed by you. Our cups overflow so that we may give and give generously.

Sometimes it takes redirection. You may have been investing your time, energy and love into the wrong places. Pray and seek the right ways to use your abundance to serve others. You may just find your purpose there. Reject the feelings of insecurity and a rise in your capability.

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12 Things You Only Understand If You Grew Up Going To Church Camp

"You had to be there."

If you grew up going to a church camp you can totally relate to these 12 things that no one else will understand:

1. Bandanas- Need I say more?

You had a bandana for every outfit of the week!

2. You probably dressed up in some pretty interesting outfits.

No matter what you wore (as long as it was dress code appropriate) it was accepted as normal.

3. Camp games were the best games!

You can always count on getting down and dirty. Camp brings the competitiveness out in everyone!

4. Everyone had a camp crush they will always remember!

Some even get lucky and find "the one!"

5. You made friends that will last a lifetime.

You meet people from all over and when you see each other the next year you can pick up right where you left off.

6. You master taking 5 minute or less showers!

You WILL get dirty and it's always a race to the showers.

7. You were a master at coming up with skits and chants for your team!

Having so much team spirit you would go home with no voice.

8. Every worship song seems to be 10 times better at camp!

Worship was your favorite part of the day!

9. You had a crush on someone in the band.

The band members are the camp celebrities all the girls have crushes on.

10. You always packed way more then you need.

But somehow you always end up going home with way less stuff than you brought.

11. You can try to tell someone about camp but no one else will understand.

All the "You had to be there..." moments are endless.

12. You start your countdown for camp next year the day you leave.

It's the highlight of the summer and it can't come soon enough.

If you've been to church camp you will never forget the memories and the friends you've made. It's something no one will understand which makes it that more special.

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My Relationship With Religion Will Never Be Black And White

and that's okay!


I was raised Christian let's get that out the way. Growing up in a small town I went to Awana (a children's church group Wednesday nights) and then once I was in middle school started youth group that night instead as well as a normal church on Sundays. If you would ask me from me being really young to probably around 15 I was all about church and building a relationship with God.

After leaving public school and growing my presence online and meeting so many people from all walks of life, I started questioning things.

Suddenly, I was immersed in this community with the best people who just loved everyone regardless of gender or sexuality or race and it was the place I was able to come to terms with something I had always repressed, my feelings towards girls.

I knew the moment I started talking to a girl named Laura that I had feelings for her I would normally have for a boy and because of the people I now had around me I just didn't suppress it. I identified online and eventually to family and friends as bisexual.

My questions started with wondering how my god this loving all knowing entity I had always known was un-accepting and promoted the exclusion of the LGBTQ+ community from the Christian faith. I knew that this community was full of the most loving and creative and beautiful people I have ever met and that was the start of me knowing my relationship with God would never be the same.

As I grew up and have become an activist for the things that mean a lot to me I have stopped attending church and have begun to see that I do not want any part in ANY religion that takes part in shunning anyone based on how they identify. I have been vocal about this to many people some more excepting then others but regardless I will never again take part in something that I myself am not 100% accepted within

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