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Vulnerable

My name is Jazlyn Rust and I am a failure

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My name is Jazlyn Rust and I am a mess. I don't know how to be vulnerable and taking compliments is as easy as biting my own cheek. I HATE when people say how great I am because I just feel I am not worthy of their words. But here is an interesting fact, I am learning.

I know, it's a weird lesson for someone to learn. But for someone who has held it together for everyone for so long, learning to look yourself in the mirror and say those magic words, "I need help," it is painful but refreshing.

This past weekend I sat down with a friend of mine and I told him my life story from cover to cover. Afterward, I looked at him and said, "there is the is the door. I don't blame you."

He didn't leave. He stayed and talked with me.

WHAT? HOW COULD ANYONE STAY?

From that moment to the moment these words leave my fingers. My mind replays those moments. Not because of romantic reasons but just because this was the first time I had shared my heart with people on my campus in such a stripped down way. But you know what? I felt free. I felt a peace fall on me and I knew God had used this friend to allow me to breathe. Sometimes in life, we have no idea how much we need to get off our chest until we begin to open our mouth. It is then, and only then, that the river falls and you feel that back up of water and pain coming out.

Today, I just wanted to say this: YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE LOVED, AND YOU DESERVE TO BE LOVED.

Don't tell yourself anything different because if the Lord didn't want you to be loved, He wouldn't have loved you first.

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