Have you ever loved someone so much it hurts inside? You can literally feel a knot inside your stomach when you push them to leave ? I know the feeling, and I also know it sucks. You miss them so much you drop everything because you just want them back in your life. I know whats it like to have someone break you because you made them. You made them break your heart; you asked for it.. 

Sometimes I'm okay and other days I don't even want to get up. I just want to lay in bed all day and just think about the good times we had. I know I'm not perfect, but there was just some things I could've done better. It could've been other things that led you away, but I blame myself in all ways. 

I shouldnt have threw fits over little things that didnt matter. I should've been more understanding and realized you was just trying. I should've ask more questions instead of assuming you did something. I shouldn't have been so controlling and just gave you trust.

i didn't realize how much he meant to me until he was in the car and pulling out of my driveway. It hit me that he was always there. He always fought for me and I didn't care . So I ran barefoot to chase him and it was to late. Now he's happy with another girl that is not me .. if you love someone do not put them through these things. Do not push them away like I did .  Understand what you have until it's to late.