I often find myself wondering why things always fail me or how am I always the one to be let down…it’s in these times I question my worth so deeply. I begin to wonder if my closest friends and family truly cares for me. I wonder why I’m never a first priority to anyone, or why I’m the second option often. I sometimes blame it on my tendency to overthink, I blame it on being a girl. But the truth is, its neither of these things. The truth is, I am putting my trust into imperfect people and temporary happiness. I am putting creation above Creator. 

"I am putting creation above Creator"

It’s tough, to put your trust into things that make you happy. A boyfriend, a friend, a sister, etc. Each of these individuals carry a significant purpose in our lives, and often times the love we receive from them is what keeps us motivated to keep going…but the thing is, they’re not perfect. They can’t always be there. They have their own struggles, responsibilities, and lives. I know that my sister is always a text message away, but I also can’t lie and say I’ve never felt disappointment when she wasn’t able to fulfill my need or answer my question.

The truth is, it’s not my sisters fault she couldn’t fulfill my void…it’s my fault for allowing myself to trust in her ability rather than Gods. My sister is possibly my biggest inspiration due to her perseverance and her ability to always stand tall. But I can’t expect her to solve all my problems for me, I can expect her to fill my heart with love and joy…only God can truly answer my questions, solve my problems, and reassure me that it is all in under His control. 

Tauren Wells and David Crowder have a recently popular song, “All my Hope,” having a line saying, “I’ve been held by the Savior.” There is so much truth in that, have you ever thought about it…no matter how many times we have failed Him, we have distrusted in His plan, we have put Him on a back burner in our lives, as soon as we run to Him with arms open wide He is there. He holds us, He cares for us, He loves us so much. 

Friends, there are so many feeble things to place our trust in. The devil seeks us out to devour us, to make us feel as if we are not important, unworthy, and a disappointment. Placing trust into things that can’t fulfill Gods promises to us lead us to heartbreaking disappointments. 

1 John 2:17 says, “The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.”

Find the faith to always trust in His plan whatever it may be. Lauren Daigle said it best when she said,

 "When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You; I will trust in you."

I pray that if you are battling the difficulty of finding yourself, you find it in God. In His promises, His strength, His love, His undeniable amazing grace. I pray you know your worth is far more than rubies and that He has engraved you onto the Palm of His hand. That you never feel worthless but always embrace the brave heart God has placed within you. I pray you find Him, find Him in a dance, a song, laughter, a Baby’s smile, and in the colors of seasons changing. For He is ever faithful, He is ever true. He is with you always; He will never fail you but always pursue you. I pray you place all your trust in Him and allow Him to guide you through life and wherever it may lead. Amen.