If Heaven had a phone they would block my number because I’d have your number on redial. There are some days where all I need is to hear your voice again. I know you can hear me and see me, but where does that leave me at? I can't hear you. I can't see you. And some days I just really need you.

They say things get easier over time, but I don’t see how that could ever be possible. Some days are easier than others. Today is not one of those days. I need you now more than ever.

When days like this roll around and all I need is to hear your voice I go back and listen to all your old voicemails. Yes, all of them-- I saved all of them. I know it's not the same, but it's as close as I can get to hear your voice again. I wish more than ever right now I could just pick up the phone and call you. I miss the sound of your voice.

I know you’re watching over me each and every day and I hope so far I have made you proud. Everything you have done in your life has inspired me to be the best I can be and pushed me to be all that I can be. I have gotten your strength through your eternal love and constant encouragement.

Thank you for always showing me your heart is open with your kind smile. Thank you for always being able to make my laugh with your witty humor. Thank you for being my number one fan. Thank you for always encouraging me to keep doing better even when I thought I couldn’t. Thank you for shaping me into who I am today. Thank you for teaching me to never give up on myself.

You have taught me many things in life, but my favorite is the meaning of family. I have learned that family is the people who love you most in life and who don’t give up on you. A family is the people who you love even when you're mad at them. A family is people who you have an endless bond with. Family stays together forever. You were the glue that held this family together and now we can see even in the worst of times you still brought us together. Thank you for showing and teaching me what family is really supposed to be.

Watching you in pain felt heavy in my heart, but I do not regret one second of staying by your side. Even still I wish I got more time with you. Seeing you in so much pain made me appreciate life more and realize all there is that comes alongside being truly sick. It made me regret all the "I love you" that I missed out on giving away before you were gone too soon.

I’ve never felt so much hurt to know that you are gone, but I am happy to know now that you are free of pain.

I hope that you smile. I hope you are happy. I hope you feel loved. I hope you are having a ball up in heaven and being the light in everyone's life because I know you are still and always will be the light in mine. I now know I have the best guardian angel watching over me and guiding me through life. Please never forget that I will always and forever love you.

Until I see you again... I love you. Keep on Keepin’ on.