So we all have heard of depression being big this time of year, but have we figured out why? Some say it’s because the holidays have ended, some say it’s because family has gone back home, and some say it’s because there’s nothing else to look forward too. I personally believe that the reasons are different and vary from person to person. I’m from a small town, and over the last few years, I found that I, too, become depressed around this time. However, many times people do not even notice how depressed I become. I mean, don’t get me wrong, we all have times we become depressed, but why does it seem more prevalent after the holidays?
Now that I am older, I am just starting to feel the effects of depression. It left many questions in my mind such as, why now, how, and what do I do with it. These are questions I still have. I often find myself becoming depressed with no rhyme or reason. I constantly wonder what brings this on, but I have yet to find a solution. Depression can be a tricky thing to handle, and overcome, especially if you don’t know where to start. For me there’s an extra challenge because I don’t know why I feel the way I do. With depression, all different feelings just spring upon you at once. Sometimes you might feel sad. Sometimes you might feel lazy, and sometimes you might feel nothing. However, lately the newest feeling that I have is boring and meaningless. I find myself wanting to do nothing but sleep the days away. I wake up and go to bed feeling the same way. It becomes very exhausting. I try to do something to get out of this funk I’m in, yet it seems I have no energy to do so. This funk seems to slowly get worse. It’s not always easy to put on a fake smile and work through it, but until I can figure out the answers to my own questions it’ll have to work. So from one depressed person to the next, sometimes there are questions in life that we cannot answer. Even though it seems like a dead end do not worry because we will overcome depression some how, some way. Most importantly, remember that not everyone who is depressed looks depressed.