I Am Traveling Now So That Regret Doesn't Get Me Later

I am traveling now so that regret doesn't get me later

There is no room for "next time" or regrets

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Over a year ago I chose to go to Thailand for my Spring Break. Not only did I meet my grandpa and his wife for the first time, but I lived with them. And although it was just a week, it changed my entire plan of how I wanted things to be for myself after college. I not only traveled alone, but I knew I was about to spend a week with family and people I have never met before. Not only did the time I spent with them change my life but the people throughout the five different airports did as well.

Now a year and four months later, I am going back. Everything in my life right now is exactly the way I want it. I have an amazing family who will be so hard to leave, I have graduated from college, I have become friends with the most beautiful people, and I have met a man who has shown me what love is. Although it has broken me down the past few months knowing I am about to leave all that is good in my life behind, for the time being, I am still doing it.

But why? Why now and not later? Why would I leave everything I didn't think I would once have for something I am so unsure of?

Regret. I refuse to wake up in two years and regret not going across the globe because a guy wants me to be with him. I refuse to stay because of family and friends. I refuse to wake up for a 9-5 job wishing I took the opportunity to live in Thailand. I refuse to worry about all that comes after I come back. I refuse to regret not taking the chance to travel. I simply refuse to let myself stay in America and do what is normally expected of a 21-year-old graduate when I have the opportunity to go outside of what is comfortable for myself.

And of course, I do think "what if?" What if I come back and those friends are no longer my friends? What if I come back and this guy has moved on? What if I come back and am forced to live with my parents because finding a job is that hard? What if I cannot get into graduate school? What if I become a failure? Or, what if I am not meant to come back?

These questions and more sit with me every day and have for the four months building up to me leaving. They have become what has kept me up at night along with the excitement of not knowing. I am such a control freak and having absolutely no control has left me anxious but so thrilled for what is next. And truthfully, regret keeps me going. Regret reminds me that everything that is mine will be mine when I come back but all that I do not take now will not be mine later.

Jobs, love, opportunities, friends, and family; It will all be right where I left it if it is meant for me. But now, as I have the opportunity to move across the country with only having to buy my plane ticket, that is what is meant for me now. As I get older and become more settled, I might never get this opportunity again.

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And he was released three months early for 'good behavior'... after sexually assaulting an unconscious girl behind a dumpster.

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To start, Lori Laughlin messed up royally, and I don't condone her actions.

If you live under a rock and are unaware of what happened to the "Full House" star, here's the tea:

Lori Laughlin and husband Mossimo Giannulli — and like 50 other celebrity parents — were found guilty of conspiracy to commit fraud, and paid a $1 million bail on conspiracy to commit mail fraud, and honest services fraud. You don't need to know what these mean except that she paid $500,000 to get her two daughters, Bella and Olivia Jade Giannulli.

I know you're wondering why they did it — tbh I am too — however, these parents paid the University of Southern California to give admission to her daughters in through the rowing team on campus, despite neither one of them actually playing the sport ever in their life.

Yeah, Aunt Becky messed up and should face punishment, but why is she facing up 20 years when men like Brock Turner are sentenced only six months for raping an unconscious woman behind a dumpster at Stanford?

I hate to bring up the gender card, but I'm pulling it: Why is Lori Laughlin — a woman who with bad judgement who used money to give an upper-hand to her entitled daughters — face more prison time than a man who willingly raped a woman who wasn't in a right state of mine (or any at all!) behind a dumpster of all places.

The answer? Because the system is a mess.

Yeah, Aunt Becky paid for her daughters to get into a school, giving disadvantages to students actually deserving and wanting to attend a college. Her act was immoral, and ultimately selfish, but it doesn't even compare to what Brock Turner did, and it doesn't even effect others as much his rape survivor.

The most that will happen to the Giannulli girls is an expulsion and a temporary poor reputation, however, Emily Doe (the alias of the survivor) will feel the consequences of the attack forever.

There should have been a switch:

Lori Laughlin and the Target guy should have had to pay other students tuition/student debt while facing prison time, while Brock Turner should have had to face over 20 years with more consequences.

But, that'll never happen because our system sucks and society is rigged. I guess our society would prefer a rapist walking around more so a woman who made a poor choice by paying for her daughters to go to a college.

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Additionally, that connection you build with your students can last a lifetime. You can witness the growth of a student right in front of you. In fact, I am still very close with some of my teachers from elementary school. Many of them inspired me to become a teacher. Because of those great bonds I built, I had the opportunity to intern with some of my past teachers, which was a rewarding experience for everyone. Being able to develop such a connection with someone so different in age is something that is so powerful and that doesn't come with many other careers.

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