Let me start off by explaining a concept you are going to find hard to grasp: you will never fully know the woman I am about to become, period. You won't know her passions, her goals in life, how many sugars she puts in her tea, or her fears.
Are you scrambling around to find the answer and wondering why?
Why should any individual have to put up with a family member who brings them emotional exhaustion and stress every single day just because they share blood?
Please, spare me the messages of "I am trying my best," to the fake "I love you" at the end of every conversation we seem to end up having. I am psychologically exhausted from faking this relationship and cutting you off now will help me progress into someone incredible, a woman who is exceptional in everything she attempts.
Before you pull out the whole "family is forever" nonsense, listen to my explanation.
As human beings, we have the right to remove someone from our lives, even if they have known us our whole lives or share our bloodline.
As for you, you deserve nothing more than what I share with friends and acquaintances on social media. You deserve the silence and passive aggressive language you use on me and the people I care about. You deserve nothing from me or my future-self, not even the fake "I love you" I am unable to type anymore.
Oh, you think that's a bit unfair? Hold my cheap tissues as I cut deeper:
How dare you say "I love you," in a meaningful tone when I know damn well you are disappointed in the life I am living, the path I am "tragically" ending up on, and even the company I am keeping.
Shall I go on?
The beliefs and values I hold highly you constantly wish to knock down. These "ugly" parts of me are going to shape the person you will never know. You want to mold me into someone I am not, someone I wouldn't be able to recognize if I looked straight into a mirror.
So why should I/anyone let a relative kick them down a few pegs because we have been brainwashed into thinking we must keep all family members in our private circle?
Why on earth would you want to be apart of someone's life who you don't respect or even approve of the things they believe in?
Why look at someone you "love" with disgust when you can let them live their life in peace.
Why should anyone on this earth be forced to keep contact with someone who disregards their feelings and harms their psychological health?
Let me guess your answer... "because family is forever."
My mental health is worth more than a quote written on a canvas.
You will never be the first person I call when I get engaged, when I receive my dream job or even an update on whether or not I failed my awful final.
Why bother pretending to care when I can just say "enough" and cut you out?
Let this situation be easier for the both of us and just let me go.
Let me keep "falling down a hole" you wish to help me out of.
I dare you to judge every error I make and the group of people I keep closer to my heart than you. I know with all of these "mistakes" I am making, my future-self is going to grow into someone magnificent. She won't need your input, judgment, stress, or "love" because she knows she deserves better.
Don't you think I am worthy of more than lies and deception?
Please, if you have any "love" left for me, let me go.
To anyone out there who believes they have to stay present in someone's life, due to being related, you need to understand you have a choice. You have the choice to dispose of toxic relationships, even if you are connected by blood. You are allowed to say "enough" to an uncle, sister, even a father who makes you anxious or emotionally drained while you're in their presence.
How dare the saying "blood is thicker than water" determine the reason we keep emotionally draining people in our lives.
YOU as a human being have the right to choose who you let into your private sphere.
YOU have control of how much poison you allow them to pass your way.
And, my darling, YOU are allowed to wave a white flag at a relative who causes you more pain than happiness.