Sometimes, they say the best way to get your emotions out is to speak what's on your mind. So, here's to anyone who might be stuck in the same path I am right now. It's okay to feel lost and confused, sometimes you feel really alone. If you're anything like me, it feels like you're on the losing side.
The best and worst thing to do in a situation like this, is to bury yourself in other activities. It's amazing because it allows you to feel free and not think about your feelings. That being said, it helps you ignore them which is a terrible idea in the long run. If you ignore your feelings long enough and you bury yourself deep enough in other priorities, it can end in terrible breakdowns and long periods of time where you can feel beat down and defeated.
The most important thing to do is take care of yourself. Self-care trumps anything and everything else. If you're not actively caring for yourself, people can tell and it affects you negatively. You're not being your best self and you're not putting out your best energy. Even small things to help you feel better can make a big difference between whether you have a good day or a bad day. Always understand that you taking care of yourself is not selfish, most times it is not only for the best but necessary.
Personally, I bury myself in work when I start to feel down. It allows me to not think about how I'm feeling and gives me the opportunity to do well at my job, which in turn helps me feel better about my current situation. The issue with this is that I work absolutely crazy hours and don't allot time for myself or anyone else. This causes me to burn out and keeps me from doing anything besides my set work and school schedule.
It is also important to note, as this plays a big part in how I feel sometimes, that people do not define you. Just because someone has decided to cut ties with you does not mean that you have done something wrong but that they have; they are losing out on an amazing individual. All you can do is try, but remember to not lose sleep for people who would not lose sleep for you.
You are beautiful, you are worth it.