I'm pretty sure I've been searching for you since middle school, but of course then I didn't feel pressured to up my search. I have gone through an absurd amount of looks, phases, friends and tastes, yet I still have moments I feel as though something is missing. While I am proud of the person I have become, I still feel as though I'm not who I'm supposed to be.

Now that the time has come where I am an adult who is more than halfway through her college career with the real world right around the corner, I find myself questioning when exactly I'll find you more and more. I guess you can say I've grown a little impatient.

Through every struggle and obstacle that has been thrown my way, I have tried my hardest to keep pushing forward. I have to say it would be a little easier if I wasn't doubting who I was every now and then. I'm not sure how exactly I'm supposed to find or become you, but I know that when I do, I will be able to conquer anything solely because I will be whole.

I know that part of the search is to simply keep living each day as it comes to the fullest. I do hope I come across you soon, however, so that I can be confident in each choice I make. It's very easy to become insecure in the world we live in, but I know that when I do find you, my doubts about myself will be gone.

I also know that in order to find you, I have to start letting go. The old memories will always be there, but I have to start making decisions for the better. I have to get rid of bad habits and toxic people in order to get to where I'm supposed to be. So while I'm finding you, I'll be losing my old self in the process, as I have done countless times before during my journey to get to you.

I hope that when I do find you, you will be as strong as I imagine you to be. This life isn't easy, but I know that each uphill battle will only lead to greater and better things. I hope that you are strong enough to open each door of opportunity that presents itself to you.

I know that it's only a matter of time before we cross paths, but I've accepted the fact that I shouldn't be in any rush. I guess finding yourself is actually creating yourself.