To the ones trying so hard, this is for you.
To the ones who feel as though they have hit rock bottom and no matter how hard they try they can't move forward, this is for you.
I'm done. I'm done trying to please others. I have spent my entire life putting others' happiness before mine, and enough is enough. Every day, I try to make a difference within my organizations and school. Sometimes, my work gets noticed and is appreciated. Other times - most times - my work goes unnoticed and I barely receive a "thank you."
Why should I continue to try my hardest if it is getting me nowhere?
Everyone keeps telling me "It'll be worth it" or "your time will come" or "it'll all pay off in the end." But what if it doesn't? What if I all of my actions right now won't matter in the future?
Every day, I question my actions. I question if anybody actually respects me or if anyone appreciates the effort I put in.
Sometimes, you just have to say "I'm done."
I'm done trying to please others. I'm done sharing my personal story to try to make others relate or not feel alone. In reality, nobody cares. Somebody may sympathize with your story, but it does not change the way they look at you. It does not change the disrespect or dishonor they have for you.
In this world, it's okay to be selfish. In fact, it's good to be selfish. Worry about yourself. Only you can create your own happiness. Only you determine what happens to that happiness in bad situations.
Other's viewpoints of you are tarnished and formed by rumors and lies of those who wish they could be you. Do not believe what others say. I know it's not easy; it is something I struggle with every day. Only you know who you are.
I know I am strong. I am caring, loving, trustworthy, and a hard-worker. I am passionate and dedicated. I am straightforward and honest. I do not appreciate lying and tainted morals, though to others, it may be their normal. I do not appreciate those who hate for no reason. I do appreciate those who try to find the light in every situation.
I know who I am, and if others want to start rumors or lies, go ahead. I know who I am and the people I truly care about know who I am. Your false opinion of me is invalid and you are just spreading lies to gain more attention for yourself.
Those who start rumors and spread lies do not have their priorities straight and need to sit down and put more effort into building themselves up rather than putting others down for their own amusement. Do you enjoy watching others' lives crumble to pieces because of a rumor you started? Do you enjoy seeing people cry and hurting them and making them question their self-worth? Do you?
I am here to say I am done. I know who I am. I know my worth. I'm done trying to please others because it is ruining my own happiness, and that is not okay.
I'm here to tell everyone who is questioning their self-worth, you are amazing and you are worth it. Do not listen to those around you; their opinions are invalid and false. Only you can determine who you are. Your opnion is the only one that matters.