It might not have happened the day we first met, or even a year after we met. Loving you was actually something I did not expect to happen at all. But it did.
We met when I was a freshman in high school, and you were a senior. Never in a million years did I think you would ever notice me, but you did. Well, I mean...I had to literally find a way to get you to notice me, but it happened! I remember walking through the halls seeing you, always pointing you out to my best friend telling her how cute I thought you were, not thinking anything would ever come of it. Finally, in the very last week of school I worked up the courage to find a way to get you to notice me.
While you may have thought our first time meeting was coincidental, it was not. I found a way for our paths to cross, and it worked out perfectly. While I will never know how you felt the first time we had a conversation, I can tell you I was a mess inside. Scared and not knowing if it was going to be awkward, it was hard to act like I wasn't a nervous wreck. However, after just a few minutes with you, it all felt natural. You even offered to carry my books for me while we walked around and talked. *Insert crying face emoji here* You were so sweet to me.
We continued to talk and see each other for the remaining days of summer, but as my sophomore year approached and you graduated, we knew things could not continue on right then. Sadly, I thought that was the end of our story.
Four and a half years later, I was working on a Sunday morning counting down the minutes until I could go home. Cashing people out, seeing face after face, I then suddenly saw yours. When I saw your face, I knew my face turned the brightest color red you could possibly imagine. I froze, looking away thinking to myself, that can't possibly be him right now. Looking back at you trying to be subtle, I noticed this time you were staring right back at me. By this point, I knew for sure it was you. As you came closer to me, I grew to be more nervous. It's funny how history has a way of repeating itself, because I could not tell how nervous you were, but I could tell you I know I was feeling like a mess inside once again.
We were finally face to face, and I didn't know what else to do besides treat you like another customer in the store and ask you, "did you find everything okay?". The tension was so thick between us, and I knew once you walked away that would not be the last conversation we would have. I was right. You found me on trivia crack later that night (really, out of all things to find me on, trivia crack? Lol), and we talked for hours. Hours turned into days, days turned into months, months turned into a year, and the rest is history...
We have been inseparable ever since.
I may not have known when I was fourteen that I was going to love you. I didn't even know when I was fifteen, sixteen, or seventeen. But I'm so unbelievably happy that it did happen.You have become a huge part of my life, if not my whole life. Everything I do, I do for you. Not a decision is made where I don't think to myself, how will this impact our life together? While everything else may not be perfect, I truly believe us, as a couple, are perfect. I could not imagine my life without you, and I don't want to imagine my life without you.
You are a part of me now, and losing you would be like losing a part of myself. Thinking back to the first time I ever talked to you, or the first time I saw you in four and a half years, I had the feeling of butterflies like crazy in my stomach. Want to know something even more crazy? I still get the same butterfly feeling every time I see you. Thank you for letting me open up to you, thank you for being the person who appreciates me even with all of my flaws, and thank you for being you. You are perfect.
I love you to the moon & back, forever & always.