By the time this is released, it has been a month since this unexpected event changed me.

To this day, I do not understand why you did not stop and looked both ways before crossing the road.

I do not know what was running through your mind that day. Maybe you were in a hurry to get somewhere. Maybe you thought you were able to cross the road before I was able to reach it. Whatever your reasoning behind was, it changed my life in a blink of an eye.

I still remember it like it was yesterday. Honestly, I thought it was my last goodbye to everyone that I cared about. Before this, I remember my mother had just called me a few hours before and told me she loved me and I said it back. Before this, my boyfriend told me to drive safe and that he loved me so much.

When it happened, I remember doing my absolute best to avoid it happened but by the time I did, it was too late. You hit me and I lost control of the wheel and hit the fire hydrant. From that moment, I thought that this was it. I remember the moment I hit the fire hydrant, I tilted back and hit the wheel and that is when the airbags went out and saved my life.

At that time, I was not processing what just happened. I was shaken up, scared, and relieved. I was trying to process what just happened to me. I was trying to stay strong but I broke down. It hit me that my family, my boyfriend, and my friends would have lost me that day and that they would live with the grief of losing me.

Throughout all of this, you never once checked on me to see if I was okay. I understand that you were worried about your vehicle and the damages to it, but it would have made me feel better just knowing that you did that. Unfortunately, you did not and that is what hurt me the most.

The point I want to make is that by your actions, it changed my life. I have many days where I have flashbacks to the event and I get mixed emotions. I can never look at things the same. I will never be able to have my sanity. My mother will never be able to answer phone calls from me the same way. She will forever tell me to be safe while driving.

It changed me not only for the worst but for the good. It made me realize that anything can happen in a flash. That to cherish every living moment you have with your loved ones until it is gone. To not take your life for granted and to tell the people you care the most that you love them. It taught me to appreciate it everything you have and to be thankful that I am alive. Not all of it was bad.

All I want to say to you if it ever reaches to you is that it will take some time, but when I am ready, I will forgive you. Also to please be more cautious because you never know, you could have taken a life of someone special who was very important to a family, to a friend, or a significant other.

All I can do is move forward and hoped that you learned from this like I am trying to do every day.