Although love is not tangible nor visible, you want the world to feel it and see it. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, but make sure you don’t allow yourself to become a victim in the process. Loving is a beautiful and yet oh so painful expression that we all want but you don’t always get what you give.
Your whole life you were taught to put others first and offer all you meet unconditional love. It always felt good to give and give and give until you realized you gave your all and got nothing in return. Not that you were looking for reciprocation or needed reciprocation, but it would be nice once or twice. For a while, you told yourself that your time would come, that karma or some other magical force out there would give you what you deserved, that you’d finally be treated the way you treat others.
But here you are, still waiting but not complaining because mom told you good things come to those who wait. You may ask yourself how long I should wait, how long until my patience run out. Although you will still smile and do as you did before because to do anything else would feel so out of your norm. This is how you have lived your like for 18 plus years, how could you even think of living it any other way? You’ll continue to loan your friend your favorite sweater even though you wanted to wear it, you’ll let him have a fifth second chance and you’ll even give him a sixth. That’s who you are, that’s who you will always be.
Somedays you will hate yourself for being this way and others it will give you that warm fuzzy feeling inside. The only time you will dislike the amount of love you have to offer is when others abuse it. People will take advantage of you and use you because they know you’re too nice to say no to any one of their requests. You never want to let anyone down but is anyone building you up? You want to give your all to everyone but when you give your all what do you have left?
There’s nothing wrong with loving so deeply until the wounds of loving get just as deep. Although your heart is big and has so much to offer, every time you allow someone to take a piece of it, or break it just a little, it begins to become weak. There is no wall you can build around your heart to protect it and no armor to give it strength, but you can be wise when loving.
Continue to share the love you have to offer with the world, but don’t forget to give yourself some love too. Remember to say no if you must, even though it may cause another to be unhappy. Your happiness is just as important as anyone else’s. That being said, don’t just do things for others but for yourself as well. I know giving away your heart comes so naturally, but make sure you save some for yourself.
You are a beautiful person for loving so endlessly, but don’t let the pain of loving be endless, too.