To the girl who gives and forgets to receive,
When I was a child, my mom would give me a big blue cup and I'd walk around the house filling all of the potted plants until their roots were drowning and the water was spread thin across the floor.
I guess all my life I was never too sure when to stop giving.
The thing with this is I could see it. I could see the dirt becoming saturated and my reservoir depleting. I could see the incongruence between what I was offering and what I was receiving.
And it still didn't matter to me. I would have poured rivers into those pots if it guaranteed the plants would live forever. All my tiny heart wanted was a fulfilled promise.
Here we are now, all this time later, and I'm still pouring out everything that I have to offer. I'm still desperate for it to matter. I'm still desperate for someone to take my emptying heart and love it and nurture it in a way that refills it with their own love. I don't need mine. I'll send it all away. But please don't leave me empty.
I'm still waiting to discover if that’s a foolish thing to wish.
You're nodding your head as you read this; you wish for the same thing. All you want is for someone to recognize your love and match it.
It is not a testament to your worthiness if someone cannot return the immensity of your love.
Do not let this discourage you. It is such a magical thing to so freely offer your most vulnerable thoughts and feelings to another person. Do not begin to live gently in fear that you may become hurt. Do not become indifferent. Have your passions. Let your spirit and soul shine brightly. The world needs more people with tremendous hearts.
That does not mean you should not search for someone who can love you the way you want to be loved. You deserve to be valued and honored and adored in a way that allows you to feel undeniably special.
Not many hearts can love like yours. Not many people can love a heart like yours properly.
It is such a profound thing: to bare your whole heart for the world to see. You are strong for that.
I can only hope someone sees the beauty in your unwavering love.
Love always,
Another girl who gives but forgets to receive