Dear you,

As I sit here and write this I can already feel the tears coming to my eyes. I know this didn't work out the way we planned, and although I'm the one who ended things, just know that it hurts me too. It always will. You were my best friend, my rock and anything else I needed you to be at any given moment. Every moment spent together will be will be times that I will never forget. Honestly, without you, things will never be quite the same. I can't help but see you in everything I do.

As much as I loved you, things just weren't clicking the way they should have. We were on two different paths and at two different points in our lives. It was as if the sure-fire connection was just out of arms reach. This was never something that I had pictured either, but I knew I needed to do this to spare the both of us. Ending what we had was something I had never imagined myself doing, but in time I knew I needed to spare us both. I could no longer reach for something I knew wasn't there, but at least we can say that we tried.

I did not give up on us. To this day I still wonder what I could have changed to make things better. What I could have done or said to make things work. What if we hadn't done this, or what if we did that, would it have made a difference? In reality, we had already fallen apart and neither of us wanted to believe it. We weren't what we used to be and going back to the beginning would have been impossible.

Please understand that I never intended to hurt you. I never meant to hurt us. It was you and I against the world, and I guess this time, the world won. There will never be a moment that goes by that I don't think of you. When I take that back road by our houses, when our favorite song comes on the radio and whenever I pass the areas we used to explore, all I can think about is how much fun we used to have. I promise I'll always smile a little bit in remembrance of a happier time.

I will always appreciate everything that you have done for me. When I was down you knew just how to pick me up, took the best care of me when I was sick, and made me laugh when I didn't even want to smile. I wish you no ill will - in fact, I wish you all the best in everything you do from here on out. Whenever one of us moves on, just know that I will always love you. Not one day will go by that I don't. Whether we remain friends, become strangers or reconnect later in life, I will never be able to forget the beginning of our story. Most stories have happy endings, and I'm truly sorry ours didn't.

With love,

Me