First of all, I would like to thank you. Thank you for making me the happiest I have been in a really long time, maybe the happiest that I have ever been. I felt safe with you. I felt like I could trust you with anything, I could tell you anything and that is exactly what I did. You were able to break down the walls that I had built up and allowed me to be vulnerable, to be myself. Because of you, I know what it is like to open up to somebody, let them know who I am and give my heart to someone. I did not know that kind of love before I met you.

I soon realized that opening myself up was a mistake. I let the wrong person into my life. I told you things that hardly anyone else knows. I trusted you, and over time, you broke that trust and I instantly regretted opening up. Because of the heartache that you caused, I built up my walls higher than before, closed myself off to everyone, including the people that I loved. I did not want to face the world. Everything reminded me of you, I saw your face in strangers and the smallest things would remind me of our time together.

I did not understand why or how it ended the way that it did. I wanted answers. I needed closure, but I did not get either one of those things. Because of that, I was left to sit and make my own assumptions. I was replaying every moment in my head, trying to figure out what it was that I did wrong. What did I do to push you away? I desperately wanted answers, but I had to come to terms that I was not going to get them. Every time that you came up in conversation or that I saw you around all I wanted to do was either ask you for answers or run away. It was really hard to stay strong.

You taught me so much by putting me through that misery. I learned who I was and what I needed in a partner. I learned how to give and accept love, and most importantly I learned what it was that I deserve. I now know the difference between what it is like to be with a boy when I need to be with a man. I know that I am deserving of complete love and respect. I need someone who is loyal and honest, and you were not that person.

Most people have had their heart broken in their life and if they haven't, it is bound to happen at some point. There is so much to be learned from getting your heart broken. It is painful at first, it is hard to give your heart to someone and then have it completely crushed without a second thought, but the growth that comes of it can be a beautiful thing.