While some might not see the issue with this that I do, I was pretty bothered by this statement. You might be thinking, "Oh, he said he would go on a date with you what's so wrong with that?" Well here's the thing, the reason that he deemed me "date-worthy" was due to how my looks have changed throughout the time that I have known him.
I'm gonna admit that I know that I have changed a lot, but that doesn't matter at all. So here's an open letter to the boy who deemed me "date-worthy."
Dear Boy,
Thank you for acknowledging that I have changed. You're right. I went from looking underweight, with my bones sticking out in weird ways, to looking healthy. I started wearing more makeup, not because I needed to, but because I like experimenting with it. I'm glad to know it apparently looks good.
While you noted the change in my looks, you are also reminding me that at one point in time I wasn't your idea of pretty. Did it not occur to you that I knew I wasn't the prettiest back then, but maybe I couldn't help it? I'm aware that even now I don't fit everyone's ideas of pretty. The difference between now and then? I don't want to fit everyone's ideals like I wanted to then.
That girl you are remembering was broken. She wanted nothing more than to be pretty; in fact, I spent a lot of nights hoping that some miracle would happen, and I would just wake up and be this unrealistic form of perfect that I had in my head. Guess what? Even though I did change, I didn't need to. I was just fine the way I was.
It's safe to say that I have changed a lot since then; both on the outside and the inside. However, when you said that I am date-worthy now, I hate to break it to you, but you're wrong. I've always been date-worthy, and it has nothing to do with my looks. Did you not stop to think that maybe my personality would make up for whatever you thought I was lacking in appearance? Guess not.
Then you wonder why I shot you down so quickly, but honestly, I don't want to go on a date with someone who is so superficial that they can only admire something as shallow as looks. That girl that you knew back then -- yes, she was broken; she laid awake most nights, picking herself apart, wondering why she wasn't good enough.
However, that's the thing I was good enough. I was "date-worthy" then. I'm "date-worthy" now. Neither have to do with my looks. I would rather find someone that admires my strength, my drive, my intellect, my kind heart, my sassy nature or a plethora of other great things that I possess that are so much more important than looks.
Sincerely,
The Girl Who IS And Has ALWAYS Been "Date-Worthy"