To The Boy Who Left Too Soon
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To The Boy Who Left Too Soon

You were different. You were everything I ever wanted. At least that's what I thought.

Mackenzie Espich
Feb 13, 2017
Ball State University
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Our relationship came fast and out of the blue. You were a stranger, and then one of the best things to ever happen to me in just a couple of weeks. I honestly couldn't believe this "perfect" man had come into my life. And chose me.

My heart fell fast and hard.

Everyone thought I was crazy. No one believed me when I said that I saw a future with you because there was no way someone could feel the way I did after just a couple of weeks of knowing someone.

But I knew. You were different. You were everything I ever wanted. At least that's what I thought.

And as fast as it started, it came crashing down.

You decided that all of those promises you made to me weren't real. You decided that what you needed wasn't me.

And I was completely broken. Because this "perfect" man decided that I wasn't enough for him. And I couldn't do anything about it.

I blamed myself, I blamed our distance, I blamed my body, I blamed how much I cared, I blamed it on me letting you in for the reasons why you couldn't do it.

But I never blamed you. I never blamed you for the times you didn't talk to me, I never blamed you for dating me even when you were in love with someone else. I never blamed you for making empty promises. Because in my eyes, you were the best guy I had ever met. And I didn't want you to be any less than perfect.

You didn't give us a chance. You didn't give me a chance.

You left before you knew what we could have been. But if you were able to leave so soon, you weren't even worth it to begin with. You were there to show me that I deserve better. You were there to help me prove to myself that I am better than some guy who could pick up and leave so easily.

So I'm sorry that I wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry you decided this relationship wasn't worth trying. But you lost a good thing, boy. And one day I'm sure you'll see that.

I'm not bitter and I'm not sad anymore because I realized I shouldn't waste my time on a man that could never love me. You were a waste of the tears I cried, my time, and my energy.

But I don't blame you. And I'm done blaming myself. Because I don't want to be with someone who can't fully love me.

So thank you for our short time together. You'll always be the guy that left too soon. I'm sure you'll make a woman happy one day. I'm sorry it couldn't be me.

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